Going by the title, you all thought I was going to write about a huge white bear of a questionable sexual orientation, huh? Well, no. Not so much.
If you know anybody who knows anybody who knows somebody who has bipolar disorder, then you yourself have asked or you have heard someone else ask, "Why don't they take their medicine?"
By now, we all know someone for whom "nutty" is the overall consensus. If the one of this description is someone with money, we do not call that person "nutty." We call them "eccentric." I am unsure as to why we do this. It is not like the wealthy need more breaks in this life. Nevertheless, it is probable, possible, or likely that this person has Bipolar Disorder and is not medicated.
Having bipolar disorder affects so many areas of my life. It affects my sleep, mood, mind, energy, thought processes, sense of well-being, and much more. The fact that I am entirely too overwhelmed to try and effectively complete this sentence speaks to the status of my disposition.
With no segue or boisterous musical introduction, we come to medicating my disorder. I take my medicine for now. I have taken it for the past few months, as soon as the diagnosis was made, and I wonder if I hate them.
I miss the mania. I miss the colors, the sounds, the breathless wide-eyed optimistic love of life, the supersonic energy, the courage to pester strangers in public, and the visible sparks of inspiration. I miss me.
I am still not as perky as one on anti-depressants could or should be.
Catherine B. of San Francisco says, “It has literally taken years to get the right combinations of medications so that I can live my life with as few side effects as possible."
So, I do more research and I come across even more documentation of people who have issues with BPD medications. A woman named Elizabeth says, “I cannot take anti-depressants. Anti-depressants send me right through the glass ceiling. A person who goes by Bipolar Girl describes the effects of “…Zyprexa, which made me fat, miserable, and practically comatose.”
Another person, who goes by KansasSunflower, says, “Since yesterday, I started taking Abilify again – 10mg. It's worked to get me out of serious depression in the past, it just has side effects that I don't like that always makes me stop taking it when I feel better.” This person also says, “…working from home affords me the luxury to sleep in if I get a ‘Seroquel hangover’. I just started taking 50mg from 100mg last night in a last ditch effort to stop eating so much at night, hoping that is the reason I keep gaining weight.”
I received a telephone call from a friend (whose husband’s brother’s cousin-twice-removed cat’s twin grandfather was stopped by policemen in Utah because he was behaving in a curious manner). Originally, he was suspected of breaking the law. He hadn't. He just has bipolar disorder and was unmedicated.
It is sad. It is a quagmire of a quandary – and it is our lives.Powered by Sidelines