This series is a form of creative writing known as fan fiction. Detective Robert Goren is a regular character on the Dick Wolf television show Law & Order: Criminal Intent. What follows is one longtime viewer's breath of life into an already popular character.
I've noticed a definite change in myself since oh, maybe November. I think back then I was reacting, at times overreacting, to everything around me. When the ex-cop got into Carmel Ridge to see my mother — something just changed then. I hung up the phone after being alerted to the situation and I was not the same person. It was as if the ground shifted and I was left grasping for footing; only the sudden movement was actually in my head. I've lost my cool at work before; I've gone to bat for the most heinous of perps because somewhere, somehow they struck a chord with me. I've rhumba'd my way around the interrogation room with a man nearly my size and I've crossed the line (table) on more than one occasion to sit beside someone that I'm supposedly nothing like. So many situations where I've just sort of seized the moment and trusted my instincts (or flew by my ass, depending…).
Those instincts told me that as much as I hate having my mother locked in a safe place, it is indeed a safe place for her. The things on the outside that trigger her so much and make it impossible for her to actually live out here, they can't get to her. It was the trade-off for having her there, the piece of mind that came from knowing no one could intentionally set out to harm her. She was protected and shielded from that.