After completing two weeks of my Paleo Diet experiment, I felt that I was turning a corner. My cravings for grains had subsided and it was getting easier to prepare Paleo compliant meals. As I went into week three of the experiment, I was feeling confident that I was going to succeed. Perhaps, I was a little overconfident. After working so hard to eat within Paleo Diet principles for 19 straight days, I cheated. I ate a bunch of chocolate and had a slice of carrot cake.
To this day, I still don’t understand why I ate the chocolate. It wasn’t in the house. I made a special trip to the bulk food store to get some, and I never go to the bulk food store. All I know is a chocolate craving came over me and I had to have chocolate macaroons. Neither words of encouragement from my wife or a pack of angry wolves were able to stop me from getting that chocolate. I must have eaten half a pound of chocolate within 3 hours of the purchase.
The carrot cake on the other hand was a result of a family visit. I wasn’t going to have any cake but when it was served; my inner voice that has been saying no was absent. I ate the cake with gusto and enjoyed it.
What surprised me most about my cheating experience wasn’t that I cheated but how I felt afterward. I felt an incredible sense of shame and guilt. These feelings were shocking because I have never really tried to diet before and I was the type of person who never denied myself anything. Feeling this way because of food was a totally new experience to me.
The feelings that I let myself down stuck with me for several days. In fact, I began to think that I should just give up on my Paleo Diet experiment. Negative thoughts began to creep into my head. I was hard on myself. My inner voice was telling me that I didn’t have the discipline to make this lifestyle change. Despite losing 75 lbs. over the last two years, I was beginning to think that I wouldn’t succeed so why bother trying.