Dan Nied's 100 Days is the chronicle of one man's quest to improve his health in 100 days. Feel free to email him at nieddan@yahoo.com with any questions or comments you might have.
What I ate today: Stuff that probably had about 2,300 calories. That included two trips to Subway and one foot-long double meat club. But no, there is no food diary today. Sorry.
Exercise: None.
All right, let me preface this by saying that I am generally in good spirits right now. I think that Wednesday was one of the best days I have had on this diet. I ate five times for just under 1,200 calories and I had a good workout.
However, I will say that my attitude kind of changed today. I know this seems to be kind of cyclical. I am sort of a manic-depressive when it comes to this weight-loss stuff. Yesterday I was Jack La-fucking-lane. Today I’m Della Reese. That’s how it goes sometimes, I guess.
Anyway, right now I am not very enthusiastic about another day on this diet. Despite Wednesday’s heroics, I feel like this has been a sub-par week and I am questioning how that could happen when I am so close to the 100 days. At the same time, I am growing more and more despondent with my job (That’s scary because I am not the kind of guy who will bend over and take it. If I go off the deep end, I will stop doing it altogether and sabotage myself. Think I’m lying? Why do you think I spent all of 2003 unemployed?)
So I am wondering if the weight loss and the job go hand in hand. I am also wondering if they are totally unrelated and just happen to be the two biggest things in my life right now.
The thing is, I am happy I am losing weight. But having lost weight, I am really no happier than I was before. The fantasies I had of this summer are starting to turn into anxieties. What if I can’t lose enough weight by the time I go home? That would be bad. What if I finally start having a good summer, then get another job (a goal by the end of August) and have to start all over in a new location? What happens if I ultimately fail at the weight loss?
Article comments
1 - zingzing
...you just lost 56 pounds. you write for a living. stop your bitching. put in some more time at work (they like it when you prove you can stick with a job), keep on losing the weight (don't you feel better after eating healthy than you do pooping out a pound of cheese and grease?), and expect these ups and downs (life sucks without them).