Those who get into porn with glee would never know the name of Angela Devi.
Those who get into porn with glee would never know the name of Angela Devi. With so many entering and leaving the industry, one girl from the next is hard to personally care about. For many of her fans, there has been an unusual mix of mystery and heartbreak at the swirling rumors that she has passed away. However because of the anonymity of the Internet, does anyone really care if a person suddenly leaves it?…
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— go to most recent comments76 - TOM FEDRING
CONMAN, IT'S "CIRCUMSTANCIAL" [Edited]! AND IT'S NOT A PARKING TICKET [Edited] IT'S A SPEEDING TICKET, WHICH MEANS SHE HAD TO SHOW HER ID.
THE NAME SHANALI DHINGRA RING A BELL? THE SPEEDING TICKET WAS IN AZ.
CHRIS MANION HAS LIVED IN THE HOUSE FOR 1.5 YRS. ANGELA QUIT THE BUSINESS 1.1YRS AGO.
IT HAS NOT BEEN A YEAR AND A HALF YET! [Edited] CHRIS' AUNT AND UNCLE LIVED IN THAT HOUSE BEFORE RENTING IT TO CHRIS. CHRIS SAID HE HAS NEVER HEARD OF ANGELA BEFORE.
WHICH BRINGS US BACK TO THAT OFFICIAL POLICE REPORT. WHAT OFFICIAL POLICE REPORT REPEATEDLY USES THE WRONG ADDRESS IN IT? NONE!!!!!!!
[Edited] YOU'VE BEEN WRONG ABOUT EVERYTHING SO FAR, LET'S KEEP YOUR RECORD GOING [Edited]
77 - Christopher Rose
If you two don't start to behave with a little more respect and good manners, I'm going to ban both of you from this entire site, something I really hate doing other than to spammers or the terminally pottymouthed.
The choice, gentlemen, is yours.
Thank you.
Christopher Rose
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78 - TOM FEDRING
POINT TAKEN!!!!!!!!!!!
79 - TOM FEDRING
AND SORRY
80 - Conman
Point taken and sorry also.
To Tom Fedring - putting our less than freindly exchange behind us,can you confirm the following in order that I understand exactly what you are saying in your previous posts?....here goes..
1. The Police report is fake for two reasons, (a) your friend who is an officer in the Police Force has viewed the report and in his opinion, its a fake and (b) based on your conversation with the present occupant of 7498 e.Christmas Cholla Drive namely Chris Manion(Nephew to the actual owners of the property)you say that has never heard of A.D/S.D and to his knowledge has never lived there ergo a false address was given on the Original Police report detailing A.D's alleged suicide (taken from lukeisback.com)
To add further weight to your statements, again quoting your friend in the Police, you also say that she received a speeding ticket in Dec 2006 whereby she had to produce various proof of identity documentation.
Hence your statement that she is indeed still alive. Have I understood correctly?
If true then I concede, the above is a pretty strong proof and thank you for sharing it with us. If true......Ultimately time will tell.
A pity nobody on this site has reported an actual sighting of her
81 - Conman
To counter Tom Fedring's statement that the Police report is fake: -
Quoting the author of this article taken from the wikipedia discussion page.
"I just talked to the Scottsdale Police Department's Public Information Office. They just confirmed that the number on the police report Luke Ford had on his website was the same one as the one that the department has. Would anyone like the number to check for themsleves? (Matthewmilam 19:27, 17 May 2007 (UTC))"
In addition, Bibianna Baez (angela's best friend), Euan C Black (her boyfreind), Dr. Seuss Kassisieh (her doctor). The above are all REAL people with easily obtained addresses. In the Death Report, it even gives their profession and place of employment. All of which is true and accurate.
Therefore, Why create a false death report that provides several pieces of information that if followed up can prove/disprove its authenticity in an instant. IMHO, all the essentials of the report have been consistent with a REAL death report.(names, dates, police report number etc)
It may well be that the address on the Police report is fake/wrong as Tom Fedring states however considering the counter evidence, it is my belief that the report is true and she's gone.
The only fly in the ointment to the above is the Speeding Ticket Tom refers to allegedly issued in Dec 2006. If someone could get a copy and post it on the net, that would go a long way in lending weight to the "she lives" argument.
I'll shut up as even I tire of my own opinion. There must be more people than me and Tom out there with thoughts on the matter. Time to voice them...
82 - TOM FEDRING
CONMAN - YOUR SUMMATION IS CORRECT.
THE ONLY REASON I CAN THINK OF PUTTING FRIENDS CORRECT NAMES ON THE DOCUMENT WOULD BE BECAUSE ALOT OF PEOPLE KNOW ALOT ABOUT ANGELA, AND WHO SHE INTERACTS WITH.
83 - school mate
I'VE LIVED DOWN THE STREET FROM SHANALI'S PARENTS
HOUSE FOR SEVERAL YEARS AND KNOW THE FAMILY QUITE WELL. I WENT TO PARKVIEW BAPTIST WITH SHANU.
IN THE LAST YEAR I HAVE SEEN HER AT HER PARENTS HOUSE WITH HER HUSBAND APROX. 3-4 TIMES. I'VE TALKED TO HER ONCE AND SHE SAID FAKING HER DEATH WAS WRONG BECAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE STARTED LOOKING FOR HER, THAT'S WHY SHORTLY AFTER A NOTICE WAS POSTED ON HER OWN SITE, IT WAS TAKEN DOWN.SHE DOES NOT LIVE IN ARIZONA OR CLOSE BY HER PARENTS. SHE NOW RESIDES ON THE EAST COAST. SHE JUST WANTED TO START OVER WITH A CLEAN SLATE AND BUILD A LIFE WITH HER NEW HUSBAND.I DON'T CARE IF YOU BELIEVE
ME OR NOT!!! SHE JUST WANT'S TO BE HERSELF, NOT THE GIRL YOU THINK SHE IS, AND LIVE LIKE A NORMAL FAMILY.
84 - Aldon
Quote Anonymous:"Again, the belief is that foul play is involved. Her family is still perplexed by her partial suicide note, as it made no sense to them. Perhaps she was forced to write it, and refereced "last Monday" as some date of significance, which really had no significance at all. Could it be that she was leaving a clue while drafting a suicide note that she was forced to create? She was a very confused and screwed up woman, but she was very smart. "
Quote school mate:"IN THE LAST YEAR I HAVE SEEN HER AT HER PARENTS HOUSE WITH HER HUSBAND APROX. 3-4 TIMES."
The human mind loves a puzzle, and you'll forgive me if I'm having trouble figuring out what's going on here.
A) has anyone called to verify the Arizona report?
B) has anyone got photo proof she lives?
I thought she was really cute, and it's a shame she's gone. I hope (for her and her familys sake) that only the identity 'Angela Devi' died on that day.
P.S. the only reason i'm interested in this topic is the inconsistencies.... had the lady declared herself out of the business I doubt I'd pay it a second look, but this suicide with doubts is odd.
85 - Paul - England
To Schoolmate
Firstly, thanks for your information you shared with us here.
I do have two questions which I will qualify. Assuming that in the very least you are/were a friendly aquaintance of hers, at least to the point whereby you could ask her direct questions concerning her former occupation.
1.What is your motivation/agenda for blowing her cover when others on this page who claim a similar relationship have towed the "she's dead" story line?
2. Can you go a step further and tell us her married name in order that we can confirm this via a people search?
In asking this, I am not attacking your credibility in anyway shape or form however you are the first person (to my recent memory)to both know her personally AND claim she still lives.
It's not that I don't necessarily disbelieve you, personally (and I doubt I'm alone) It would be wonderful news were it confirmed that she is now living her life free & happy. In fact I believe most people would stop speculating/searching and respect her wishes for privacy.
I anticipate your answer with gratitude
86 - just musing
Just musing......
I love this particular forum, since its inception it has been a catalyst for hours of intrigue and speculation.
The only negative is this. Though very interesting, the majority of posters who make bold claims especially those who "know her" (e.g schoolmate)go sadly but predictably silent when asked to qualify/provide verifiable evidence to support such claims.
Ironically, Their silence speaks volumes regarding the strength of such claims.
87 - Brian
I'll tell you what really sucks about this is the way the Foxes website handled this thing. I work for a law firm and am gone from 4:30 AM until 6:00 PM every day, and I never heard about it until it was too late to access many photoclubs I paid for.
I always checked the main website for updates on the personal websites, but they either didn't put any announcement up, or they removed it after a few days. I could only get on the web on weekends, and I feel that I was "ripped off" because I wasn't notified and didn't get to view photoclubs I paid for. Regardless of the reason, the site operators owed it to its customers to allow them sufficient time to download the photos they paid for. I have told everyone I know who is interested not to do business with this site, as I feel I was cheated out of something I paid for! The Foxes site owes a better explanation to its customers and shouldn't "sweep this under the rug" so callously. We fans of Angela deserved better, even if she didn't care a lick about us. We liked her, whether we liked her "online persona" makes no difference. We was robbed!
88 - paul - england
In answer to the above: -
You can still view photo sets purchased from the "foxes" website.
Just go to the members area on the right hand side of the main page and input your log in name and numbers.
Strange how they should pull the plug on the personal site and yet still allow access through the Foxes site.
I wonder what this means in terms of intellectual property rights not to mention the ongoing "dead or alive" debate
Comments please
89 - Anonymous
She is NOT DEAD fools. SHE IS ALIVE
AND I GOT EVIDENCE!!!
90 - Anonymous
"am currently studying Accounting with a minor in finance. My lifelong aspiration is to become a corporate CPA and to have a loving family with two beautiful children. As you can tell I love modeling as a hobby!"
She FAKED her death so she can lead a normal life!!!
91 - Matthew Milam
The Scottsdale Police Department in Arizona has the official report, she did commit sucide. I even have the file number.
How exactly can she fake a sucidie? If she did, then who in the hell did they find in the garage?
92 - Anonymous
Well are there any pics? or actual visual evidence?? They fake reports all the time just cuz there's a file doesn't mean anything.
"I am currently studying Accounting with a minor in finance. My lifelong aspiration is to become a corporate CPA and to have a loving family with two beautiful children. As you can tell I love modeling as a hobby!"
she faked her death to lead a normal life.
93 - Paul
To anonymous - With all respect, it is my opinion that your statements without any proof or so called evidence/ verification other than your exclamation marks are nothing more than a young man's wet dream.
You insist she is alive yet fail miserably to provide anything other that silly statements. Try providing evidence or at least a compelling argument as to why we should believe you!
oh and another thing, Whilst you hide behind a shield anonymity you are just another crazy suffering from a bad young man's wet dream. Go back to sleep, you've got school in the morning.
You sir are a buffoon.
94 - Things that make you go Hmmm
Michael Paloma/Saquella is far worse a person than this or any other press release can possibly describe. Without the slightest inclination of remorse, he will lie, cheat and steal from/to anyone, including his own family, just so long as he stands to benefit. He manipulated millions of dollars from thousands of others, caused jobs losses, businesses closures, and forced individuals and their families into poverty and misery. How could someone do such horrible things? In his delusions of grandeur, Mr. Paloma/Saquella bought a personal jet, second and third houses, multiple cars, trucks, motorcycles, multiple mistresses,(with a family at home) made patheticly distasteful and talentless movies and music cds, bought billboard ads in several major cities that which exhibited his face (and sometimes one of his many mistresses) as so he could advertise his so-called (self proclaimed) entertainment success, and those were just the basics. All the while, he knew he was harming others, yet that was not in the slightest bit, any concern of his. It is strongly advised that no person should ever consider conducting any sort of business with this man.
95 - Sam
So, is the lady dead or not, lets make up our minds now. If she is alive show proof or just let the fuckin' lady rest in peace.
96 - Paul
Dear Poster #94 .
I'd like to thank you, both for your comments and the time you wasted in providing us humble seekers of truth with such a Masterclass in verbal buffoonary. (yes I know it's not a proper word)
Your onslaught of litterary eloquence quenches the life force from all but the most insatiable followers of our late high priestess - namely one
"Angela Devi" or "bungholio" - as you may know her
For someone possessing the I.Q of the common dung beatle to have unearthed such a "turnip" of discovery is equally miraculous.
As Irrelevant, confusing and senseless as your words may be, I note (with not a small amount of Irony) your comments actually make more sense than many past posters on this forum.
Dear MR #94 - In closing, I'm led to believe that Americans don't get Irony - If you are indeed (and I do suspect you are) a beloved member of the worlds most powerful tribe, my last paragraph will seem as pointless to you as your clap - trap was to me, Which when one thinks about it is equally Ironic!!!
But of course, how would you know. Irony- infinitum! (latin)
Ha - Ha !See how you like your time wasted by verbal gob-shite! - Facist!
Now change your bed sheets and get to school, you are going to be late!
97 - SCHOOLMATE
YOU GUYS ARE STILL AT IT? I BROUGHT OUT THE TRUTH
ABOUT SHANALI BECAUSE WE AREN'T THE GREATEST OF FRIENDS, WE JUST KIND OF TOLERATED EACH OTHER AT SCHOOL. PAUL, IN ENGLAND- YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN DECENT AND RESPECTFUL TO EVERYONE WHO CONTRIBUTES
HERE, I THINK IT'S FUNNY THAT NOW YOU ARE PUTTING PEOPLE DOWN! ANYWAY, SHANALI AND I WHERE
FROM DIFFERENT SIDE OF THE TRACKS, SHE CHOSE THE SLUTTY, BELIGERENT, PUBLIC FARTING SIDE AND I CHOSE TO GO TO SCHOOL AND MAKE THE MOST OUT OF COLLEGE AND LIFE. FROM LOOKING AT THE CAR HER AND HER HUSBAND DRIVE, I DON'T THINK EITHER ONE OF THEM CONTINUED THEIR EDUCATION, BUT, I'M SURE THE TRAILER PARK THEY LIVE IN IS QUITE NICE!
IT'S QUITE AMUSING LISTENING TO A LOSER LIKE ANGELA DESCRIBING THE PROS OF LIVING IN A TRAILER PARK!!!! I'M NOT THE ONLY SCHOOLMATE WHO WAS REPULSED BY HER, OR SEE HER , I'M JUST THE ONE WHO POSTS ON THIS WEBSITE.
98 - Paul - England
To School mate
Again , Thanks for your reply . Could you tell us a more that maybe useful?
99 - Paul - England
School mate,
Could you provide us with a little more than just your (and it has to be said) moralistic totalitarian opinion on what does and does not consitute acceptable ways in which a person lives?
To date, other that some fairly revelationary statements insisting AD is alive and driving awful car - you have failed to provide us with supporting evidence, just your own fairly right wing opinion.
I agree my comments have been saracastic to say the least and if I've offended - good.
My reasons - The same old merry go round sensationalist statements and still no way of establishing fact from damp duvet by third party verification.i.e ofiicial records, Marriage , death, lisense plate ~ present residence,etc
ergo IF she got married = What's her new name so we can check.
IF - She moved house - To where? state? city? planet? solar system? Orbitting space station? anything ...please
She apprently drives a beaten up car = What's the make and plates. Did you happen to notice? seems fairly straightforward to me
I can only presume that knowing "you were onto her" she let rip with an ass blast so strong that that it was later recognised as the world's first Anally propelled "finger of God ".
She of course made her get away with trailer trash husband in tow shortly after you passed out Which could go some way to explaning your lack of evidence. Please carry on the story I'm gagging to hear this one!
In closing
These requests for EVIDENCE are basic minimum requirements of anyone wishing to press even the most basic claim.!!!They are not unreasonable requests. Surely anyone with a story to tell should be expected to provide evidence.
what do we get----here goes (I'm quoting directly from the page)
1 She is NOT DEAD fools. SHE IS ALIVE
AND I GOT EVIDENCE!!! - Care to share this evidence? -
Apprently not. we are however fools.
2 Well are there any pics? or actual visual evidence?? They fake reports all the time just cuz there's a file doesn't mean anything
Another gem from that fountain of gobshite
Mr A Nonymous - no more comment needed me thinks.
I could go on but lack the will. Basically Gents all we have managed to accomplish over the last two years is cloud an already muddy pool.
Am I on my own here? how do others think?
In the immortal words of that unfunny bald git from AP - "throw me frickin bone"!
I am going to retire from this forum, but I have a dream that one day, someone, somewhere, some how will get some kind of proof/evidence however tenuous.
Until then, one can only believe our beloved Angela Devi has indeed "popped her cloggs" and moved on to the next life as a snail (please don't ask for evidence or I'll swing for someone!).
Now if you'll excuse me, my self-propelled aviating pig has arrived. must dash, toodleooo!
quack!whoosh!
100 - Anonymous
Angela did indeed commit suicide. I was a personal friend of hers. Please respect the fact and stop posting all sorts of nonsense. Her best friend and boyfriend informed police that she may have done something and police went to the home to meet them. They broke in and discovered her. This was NOT her first attempt. Her friend is a friend of mine as well and saw her body.
101 - Paul - England
Answer that one then School friend - The way I'm looking at it - somebody's lying or one of you sees dead people - whats it to be
102 - surfer69
HEY PEOPLE! SHE IS ALIVE!!!!
I SAW HER ON THE BEACH WITH SOME OF HER FRIENDS
I GUESS. I TALKED TO HER, AND SHE WAS VERY FRIENDLY. YOU GUYS NEED TO COME TO FLORIDA,
YOU CAN SEE HER FOR YOURSELFS IF YOUR LUCKY!
THIS IS IN SEPTEMBER!!! 2007!!!
103 - Paul - England
Here we go again.....When you go down to the beech and spot her - Heres a top tip, locate a camera (borrow, buy one) your choice) and take her frickin picture!!!
Did you not think - "OMG - This could bring an End to the live or dead argument that has raged too and fro over cyberspace for over two years , I have the power to end it and enlighten everyone.. at last irrefutable proof that she is not dead."!!
No you dont, you just TYPE IN BIG LETTERS AND DECLARE SHE ON THE BEECH, TAKING A SWIM, RELAXING IN THAT VERY SMALL PLACE CALLED FLORIDA.
Where in Florida? give me a clue, say within a hundred miles, name, place ..... You begin to see my problem with your story.
Surfer 69, I am sending over a monkey to take charge. you will give monkey a full desription of where you saw her, when, etc and never question what the monkey does. You can then go.
The monkey will take care of the rest. Your work is done
104 - Angelafan
Let us all be happy in the thought that she is alive. Florida or anywhere, if she chose to hide, let us respect her privacy. Fans, try to believe that she is alive and happy which is what you wish to hear. I wish her all the very best in life.
105 - JINGLEBELLS
I'M JUST HAPPY SHE'S ALIVE!! IT SEEMS FOR SOMEONE WHO COMMITTED SUICIDE, THEY'RE SPOTTED QUITE FREQUENTLY! ANOTHER THING, FOR THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SPOTTED HER, IF YOU RETURN TO THE AREA YOU SPOTTED HER, PLEASE TAKE A CAMERA. YOU NEVER KNOW! I KNOW IT'S A LOT HARDER TO GO GRAB A CAMERA AT THE BEACH THAN WHAT PAUL SEEMS TO THINK. BUT IF YOU'RE GOING TO THE SAME SPOT YOU SAW HER, SHE MAY LIVE CLOSE BY. MAYBE YOU CAN CATCH HER AT THE GROCERY STORE, OR FAST FOOD PLACE.
106 - TRUE-KNOWLEDGE -FLORIDA
ANGELA, SWEET,SWEET ANGELA,
IS LIVING IN PEMBROKE PINES-MIAMI AREA OF FLORIDA!!!
SHE LOOKS GREAT, DOSEN'T CARE ABOUT HER PAST PROFESSION, AND IS DOING QUITE WELL. SHE'S VERY HAPPY, DOING HER OWN THING, AND DOSEN'T DENY HER ALTER EGO. SHE SAYS SHE ONLY BEEN ASKED ABOUT
WHAT'S GOING ON A COUPLE OF TIMES. 99.9% OF THE POPULATION DOSEN'T KNOW WHO SHE IS. THE SUICIDE WASN'T HER IDEAL, BUT SHE IS RARELY ON THE INTERNET, AND NEVER TYPES IN HER ALTER-EGO BECAUSE
SHE DOSEN'T CARE ABOUT THAT PART OF HER PAST. SHE WAS SCREWED OVER BUSINESS WISE. SHE IS VERY HAPPILY MARRIED, AND LIVING A NORMAL LIFE......
NO, YOU IDIOTS I'M NOT POSTING A PICTURE...... I DOUBT I'LL VISIT THIS SITE AGAIN. I WAS TOLD BY A FELLOW LOSER LIKE ALL OF YOU PORNOGRAGHERS OUT THERE READING ALL THIS, ABOUT THIS DISCUSSION. LIKE ANGELA SAYS...
IF YOU WEREN'T INTO PORN.....YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHO SHE WAS
AND SHE DOSEN'T WANT TO DEAL WITH ANYONE INTO PORN AGAIN!!!!!!
I TOO, AM LIKE ALL OF YOU, I KNEW ALL THE MODELS ON THE INTERNET. BUT NOW I'M HAPPILY MARRIED AND GOT A LIFE HERE IN FLORIDA. I GREW UP. WHICH IS SOMETHING YOU ALL NEED TO DO.. HOW DO I KNOW ALL THIS YOU MUST BE ASKING? I LIVE HERE IN THE PEMBROKE - MIAMI AREA!!!!! I DO HAVE PICTURES OF HER WITH ME IN THEM. YOU WOULDN'T LIKE THEM ANYWAY ----- SHE LOOKS LIKE A BEAUTIFUL HOUSEWIFE
AND NEIGHBOR---- SHE LOOKS NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!
107 - Paul - England
To True Knowledge
Now that Last comment is the best on this site (apart from of course the judgemental tone).
Its fair to say that all of us writing on this particular page actually did give a shit, we are not losers and make no money out of porn. We are fans who paid angela's and no doubt your wages. This was your choice of profession so so kindly refrain from labelling us pornogrophers.
We are consumers of a product, widely available marketted in a highly competetive market. We chose to support anglea and have continued to do so even after her supposed death.
By the very nature of the Industry, I don't for a moment Angela gave a rat's ass about us or many other people, but we did about her so much so we have devoted hours of discussion, thought and of course our money, a large proportion of which went to Angela benefitted from.
With regard to your comment "IF YOU WEREN'T INTO PORN.....YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHO SHE WAS"
So what?, If you arn't into suicide you don't know how to tie a noose - Ironic.
We on the site merely wished to put an end to the speculation one way or another, we have voluteered opinions, theory's,facts etc as have you.
Now piss off
108 - Paul - England
I did not proof read my last post so I apologise for the errors.
I would just like to say the following.
To surfer 69 - I offer my sincere apology for my saracastic message. It is only after I re read my own posts that I realised how out of order I was and am shamed by my harsh tone and bitter comments, especially since I personally have contributed nothing in terms specific/new information, I've only commented on that submitted by others like yourself.Again sorry & I thank you for sharing this new info with us.
Paul
109 - Paul - England
To True Knowledge
Just to add to my earlier post.
All here on this page wanted nothing more than the truth. we have never posted pictures of her nor made any lewd or degrading comments about her.
For myself (and I believe I'm not alone) Angela was the only model I have pictures of. I'm not "into porn" as I find it distasteful in general.
Angela differed from all the others in that to me, apart from her looks/body etc, she seemed to have a genuinely warm personality, she projected herself in a non-slutty and tasteful way. If anything I became bored with the typical nude shots and would have preferred to see her looking natural and keeping her clothes on (well thats not entirely true) but I hope you get my point)
She was one of the few that was adored by many. To qualify this - On hearing of her alleged death, I & every fan was gobsmacked. I know of a great guy in Chicago who was devastated by the news.
In light of recent revelations, I doubt any here will be jetting off to Florida to find her and after meeting her, we don't think our devotion will be rewarded with sex. Like others, I'm glad she's alive, happy and married and Ironically - out of porn. She was far too classy for that.
If as you say, the porn industry screwed her over - Well every cloud has a silver lining & If the upshot is she's married, happy, in love etc. Good luck to her and thanks for the memories, I say
You can tell her that when you next see her - from all of us.
110 - FromThatChicagoGuy
First, to my very good friend Paul: I thank you for the consideration offered my way. Also,I think everyone who ever will post or read anything on this site should commend Paul. He has been vigillant on this whole ordeal concerning Angela and in my opinion has been earnest and non-pretentious. If at any time he has been overly dramatic in his assesments and opinions, it's only because he cares deeply for one Angela Devi. In my opinion, he has been valiantly noble.
To this very night, (literally), it was 4 years ago that I first became aware of one Angela Devi. To the poster(s) above, who seem to insinutate that anyone who was or is still talking of her is some kind of freak, I ask that you be not so sure of what you hath spoken. The fact of the matter is, that for a representable few of her fans, we are not pathetic, porn monsters of any sense. If anyone knows anything about what a Minimum Spanning Tree is, that person realizes we are all at most 8 persons removed from each other, or so as the argument goes. To suggest as you have, that one only could have discovered Ms. Dhingra because of a porn addiction is just wrong. I certainly 4 years ago didn't set out that night looking for a Porn Star. I came across her because one site, lead to a second and then to a third, maybe a fourth ... and after a click on her very cute picture.. for me, the rest was history. I understand your point, but please understand the point I'm making for more than just a few other guys out there.
Looking back on my affection for Angela makes me understand how the London crowd must have felt when Jimi Hendrix arrived in London 40 years ago this current year. For before I clicked on Angela's picture four years ago tonight, I couldn't have imagined anyone quite like her. I considered Porn Stars that were on the Internet as something less than desirable, much less think about.
But I think it a strong testament to Angela herself that I did seek her Internet presence. How could I not? It's a very personal thing to say here, but I was overwhelmed by her. Within 2 weeks of my noticing here, I was completely numb about her; I couldn't think straight. I was falling in love. Yes, I know exactly what I just wrote ... I'm not delusional. Furthermore, I conjecture that there were and are a few people out there who are not comfortable with what I just wrote. To them I ask why it is that they would seem so threatened by my warmest regards and affections? Truth be told, if I ever had the chance to have met Angela I would have hid my head in the sand, and if I had dared to summmon the courage to speak to her I would have been so bashful. I would have melted.
I had a long running concern over Angela's well-being. Porn seems to be a likely candidate to have a darker side; so from a far distance I was always hoping that she was doing fine. As Paul mentioned, I was devastated when I like all others heard of Angela's alleged passing. In fact, I remember one particular night, mid-April 2006, when one poster on another site made a comment that seemed to solidify that Angela had really passed away. I walked over to a closet area, held a pillow to my mouth and just screamed in horror, tears and all. Sure enough, I was overwhelmed in the couple of months following her passing. I knew then, that this was for this man's life a true tragedy and would forever more hurt. It was not surely the way life is supposed to be. Angela's lifetime as an Internet Model was finite for sure, but we had all expected the ending to be celebrated with news of her obtaining her Accounting degree, soon to be married etc, etc ... you all know what I mean.
Tonight as I was out with friends, I thought about Angela a few moments, much as I do everyday of my life. I thought about how special she was ... so cute, evervescent, intelligent, warm, affectionate. I also thought about the pain that I always feel when I think of her. On how it hurts to know that she is no longer with everyone, whether it be in her closest circle of friends and confidants or in the way she participated with those of us on the Internet. On how when any given day starts, it is not complete without her being part of it. On the pain she must have felt all the way up to the point of her decision to leave it all.
As these thoughts raced through my mind, I thought of the friends I was out with tonight and others. As I did a month or two after Angela's passing, I renewed a pledge to be the best friend I can to those who are close to me. Before, I didn't take anything for granted, but without doubt going forward I will always pay special attention to my friends and their concerns. In this man's lifetime, I feel like I lost someone very special in Angela. Most assuredly, I don't want to loose another person who is very important to me. Once is one to many ....
If, as the posters say above, Angela is alive then I like Paul, wish her the very best obviously. Somehow, my gut instinct tells me this is not the case. However, if it is, then at least she should know that many of her fans out there truly care about her, and to use a worn out phrase, think she is the greatest thing since sliced bread.
I now will lay this man' head down to sleep. About this time to the hr. 4 years ago, I remember doing much the same thing; in fact, I remember thinking to myself that I had realized that I had jut come across someone very special.
Now 4 years later almost to within a few minutes, I realize something that I supposed back then but now I can most assuredly say with no equivocation for the rest of this man's life:
I love you Angela!! And God how I (we) miss you!! God bless you Angela ... how we miss your smile!!
111 - Damare
Beautifully said, Chicago guy. Dont think I could of put it any better. Her videos are amazing to me. I dont even find them very sexual either. Its her personality, her charm. I too have deep feelings for this woman whom Ive never met, yet feel like I know. She is magic. I hate not knowing if this person is still with us or not. If she is, Im a little angry that she could do this to her fans. And if she's not, my only wish would be to turn back time, fly to Arizona, and do all I can to save her.
112 - Paul - England
Hi There Chicago guy
I echo the sentiments of Monsieur Damare - Well said indeed. I'm Glad you still speak from your soul -
e-mail soon.
113 - ChicagoGuy
Thanks for the responses gentlemen ... it's just that I felt it was the perfect moment for me to post as I did. It was about 4 years ago that I became aware of Ms. Angela and with what other opinions were said above, I just wanted to put it out there that for a lot of us it was very natural to discover and gravitate to her.
My gosh, like Damare said ...she was magic ... a pure magnet of appeal, charm, wit and warmth. It was those things that really made her so incredibly beautiful.
I'm sure there are other Angela fans reading this column. Time for everyone to speak up. I'd like to think that Angela's friends could, but they can't ... and for very understandable reasons.
So ... it's up to us ... her fans, to speak about her, for her ... so she will never be forgotten! So that her name will always spoken in the highest honor!!
Cheers,
ChicagoGuy
114 - ChicagoGuy
You know True Knowledge, I re-read your post once more, and for all that I wrote up above, I would be remiss if I didn't make a post taking issue with your ending comment. I wish I had made this comment earlier as I don't want to get in the habit of posting too often.
I DO HAVE PICTURES OF HER WITH ME IN THEM. YOU WOULDN'T LIKE THEM ANYWAY ----- SHE LOOKS LIKE A BEAUTIFUL HOUSEWIFE
AND NEIGHBOR---- SHE LOOKS NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!
Let me be very clear: I don't want a personal battle with you, nor am I saying that you are not on personal terms with Angela. In fact, so much the better for Angela, as that means she's alive and well and surrounded by friends and family who will serve as the foundation that I always had hoped to her have. Before I state what is to follow, let me be emphatic. That is the only real thing that matters.
But I gotta' say something here ... when you made such comment as listed above, I kind of take it as an affront to myself, a few others, and lots of other guys who aren't tuned into this site anymore, who aren't present with which to defend the truthfulness of their personal affections for one Ms. Dhingra. What you're implying is that the guys on this site and their interest in Angela was "only" as a sex object. That we wouldn't be interested in Angela now, because now and going forward she is no longer a porn model and is a wife and someday soon I suppose, a mommy.
Wow, amigo .. that's a big assumption to make about all others than yourself, don't you think?? No doubt, for at least a minority of her fan base that was probably true. However, for the copious number of fans I outlined in the previous paragraph, I don't think it was all "just" about being "turned on" by her sexual internet persona.
I think it's safe to say, that you don't get the output of emotion, pain and tears for one Angela by so many fans on this site and others if all of her fans could be wholly categoerized as you seem to want to do.
Personally, I would love to have known Angela as a friend, a housewive, her family ... all because she seemed like such a wonderful girl. In fact, I say honestly and with full conviction, that I would have enjoyed a photo-set with Angela fully clothed more than the so-called "naughty" shots she did (as Angela called them). Maybe you don't believe me?? Well, I know the TRUTH on that one buddy.
Lastly, I'm not ashamed nor reticent to state that I really believe Angela is the best real-life friend that I and others never had. Furthermore, it looks like Angela is now your personal friend. Be that friend to her, so that she never will feel such depsair to the point of leaving it all.
However, please, please, don't come back and bad-mouth irresponsibly to the rest of us. Instead, be glad for the position and awesome responsibility that you have ... now that you know her. For us, to her, please do that.
Our dear Angela deserves nothing less.
Cheers to everyone!!
ChicagoGuy
115 - TRUE-KNOWLEDGE
SHE'S PREGNANT WITH A LITTLE GIRL!!!!!
SHE LOOKS GREAT, JUST A SWEETHEART!!
THE HAPPY COUPLE JUST BOUGHT A HOME AND ARE DOING WELL!!! I CAN'T BELEIVE I REMEMBERED THIS WEB SITE.
AND TO CLARIFY ONE THING, I NEVER SAID THAT IF YOUR WEREN'T INTO PORN YOU DIDN'T KNOW HER, SHE DID!!!
116 - ChicagoGuy
You can't believe you remembered this Web Site??
Hahahaha ... like, what a coiincidence that you remembered this blog, oh ... just say 4 days before her alleged suicide of 2 years ago. Yeah, right!!
True Knowledge, it's because I KNEW that your chances of posting in a time period such as this was so dramtically heightened, that I've been checking this site semi-regularly in the recent little bit. If what you're saying about Angela is true, wow, that's great news of course. But please stop with the repeated banter you always write about how we're just aimless idiots and that it's our luck that you just happened to remember this Web Site. Like as if we need your pity because we're so pathetic. If anything, you're just demeaning some of her real fans.
Since your last post on Oct. 30th, you've had about going on 150 days to make another post, funny how you make the post now, just a few days before March 31st.
Next topic of point. Hey, True K., noone implied or stated that you said "IF YOU WEREN'T INTO etc, etc ...". We all understood that you were saying Angela said that. My friend Paul didn't mis-take what you wrote, nor did I, nor did anyone else.
But what YOU wrote, was that people on this blog have a porn problem, ARE porn monsters etc... like as if that was YOUR OPINION. Then you bring back "that's what Angela said", so as to make it like we're actually in disagreement with her. Nice job at trying to portray us as taking an issue with Angela.
But guess what?? I and a few others are not into Porn and after Angela supposedly left this life, we never had nor will embody the tenor of someone that's into porn per se ... that's your call to believe me and others of course, but it's just the same as our call, as to whether to believe what you say about Angela.
The issue is not whether it's something very lovely what you say has happened in Angela's life, FOR US it's rather whether you are telling us the truth when you say she's alive.
Need I remind you and everyone of the pain of the last 2 years?? It was horrible!!
Seriously though, thanks for the post!!
It's all in good candor, that's all ...
Sincerely,
ChicagoGuy
117 - watcher
Wow. y'all need to get lives.
118 - Damare
March 31, 2006. It has now been 2 years since we were last graced with the heavenly presence of our beloved Angela. Today will be a very sad day. In memory of her, I will watch with heavy heart some of her videos. I will gaze just a little longer at the picture that hangs upon my otherwise almost barren wall. I will wonder not what might or might not have occured on that fateful day. It hurts just a little too much to think, not only did she leave us, but being told it never even happened. And I know at the end of this day, I will have the same feeling Ive had at the end of every day for the last 2 years...
I miss her.
I miss her deeply.
119 - ChicagoGuy
Damare,
Several months ago, you cited a written submission of mine by saying, that given what I wrote, you couldn't have written it any better.
Today, on this very sad day, I want to reciprocate. What you just said, is to the point, beautiful, and just pounding with emotion. Thus, I want to tell you, that I couldn't have written any better what you just wrote.
To us Angela was just that special. There were some other things I was thinking of saying about Angela today, but you just went right to the heart of it all.
I'll save those things for a later day, because on this sad day, you just about wrote anything and everything that a fan of hers would want to say.
Angela, surely is smiling upon you right now my friend.
God bless Angela, her family, the friends she was close to, and God bless you too Damare my friend.
120 - TK
ANGELA'S DOING GOOD. SHE IS GETTING READY TO TAKE HER REAL ESTATE LISCENSE, SHE ONLY HAS A SHORT TIME BEFORE SHE HAS HER BABY. SHE'S BIG BUT VERY HAPPY. WE'VE READ YOUR RESPONSES, SHE GET'S A CHUCKLE OUT OF THEM. THERE'S A DIFFERENT SITE WE LOOK AT MORE BECAUSE THERE'S ALOT MORE ACTIVITY, AND SHE GETS A KICK OUT OF ALL THE POSTINGS. SHE DOES HAVE A SWEET LAUGH
121 - Damare
Prove It!
122 - ChicagoGuy
Damare, there won't be any proof.
I feel bad, that you and others I know of, are subjugated to this banter intentionally spoken of for no other purposes than but to mock genuine people who cared deeply for Angela.
What's happening here is no different than someone trying to rub sandpaper on old wounds.
What a classless thing for someone to say!! Hideous!!
Noone owns the truth, nor should ever be so vile as to play with it in such a manner as to attempt to confuse, mock and obfuscate.
Yet, in despite of all that, just remember who Angela was. Her beauty is timeless because she always lives in our hearts.
Damare, for me buddy .. keep that picture on your wall of Angela. In those moments when you gaze into her glorious eyes and wonderful smile, all else will fade. In these moments, you will be as close to her as you could ever be ... far away from the voices of dishonesty.
It is in these moments, that you will find the greatest truth of all: Your love for Angela. In the end, that's all that really matters.
Cheers,
ChicagoGuy
123 - Damare
Thank You ChicagoGuy. Your words always make me feel better.
124 - Paul - England
Guy's,
At the end of the day, it is irrelevent if the person we knew as Angela Devi is alive, dead, a recent mother or anything else for that matter.
Angela Devi never existed. She was a construct, an actor who gave her fans what they wanted. She created this persona for herself in order to make money by posing naked on the internet and selling the photo's to her fans.
We never knew anything about her nor who she was. Even now, over two years since her alleged death, the internet is still rife with speculation, none of which is backed with any kind of solid proof.
I say this with the deepest respect for Damane and Chicago Guy. I understand your sentiments but I do think you have elevated her to a status she probably never wanted, let alone deserved.
In the cold light of day, she was a soft porn model who for God alone knows why, left the industry and does not wish to stay in touch by any means with any of her fans.
Whoever she was, she's now moved on and I think we should too.
These are the only facts we have.
Paul - England
125 - saiberunato
No matter who Angela really was behind the public persona she created for herself, she was ultimately a flesh and blood human being. It's only human to be empathetic, and feel the pain of losing someone you've developed a strong emotional bond to, even if that person never personally knew you.