3:10 p.m. - Again, just because.
3:28 p.m. - Not feeling well and wanted sympathy and soup.
3:31 p.m. - I have Facebook and Twitter on the top Bookmark Menu Bar and, well I hit the button for Twitter. The thing is I didn’t even think about it and I didn’t necessarily want to go to Twitter, but I clicked it and realized my response was quite Pavlovian. I see Facebook or Twitter in the bookmark places and I automatically need to access it. I did not salivate, but I became enlightened to the subtle subliminality of the symbols and buttons singing to us to get us into their online universe. I immediately went about deleting all easy clicks to the websites to avoid temptation.
4:02 p.m. - News about Billy Corgan’s brother Jessie Andersen who was mugged on a Chicago train and has cerebral palsy and Tourette’s syndrome. In the article, I saw a copy of Corgan’s tweeted words asking for people to show his brother support and love on Facebook. He provided a link for us to leave a message. I almost clicked on the link. I don’t know Billy or his brother. I was never a big Smashing Pumpkins fan, but I almost went to their page and gave him a virtual fist pump of support.
Two days into my detox and I have had some pretty big realizations. Our updates and their inevitable responses let us know we are not alone. They allow us to share ourselves in ways we don’t or can’t with the people around us. But I wonder, are we finding or allowing our true selves to show, or are we manufacturing ourselves to be the people we wish we were?
What do you think?