No, I didn't always want to write. When I was a kid much time was spent reading all manner of rock (and other) yacking: Ben Fong Torres, Dave Marsh (though I can sorta do without him now), Hunter S. Thomson and Lester Bangs. It was all 'incoming'. If pressed to write a paper in school I would get all sweaty, invoke the Procrastination Protocol and at some point scratch out a few pathetic pages. Not good stuff.
Many years after college and a sort of flatness became apparent. Two life situations that can surely foster the desire for that great and intangible "something else" are a fading marriage and a stuck 'career'. I had both. It all felt very....not sure what the word would be....heavy. An explosion of incredible ugliness solved the former problem. On my own I was left with more time to ponder things like Natalie Goldberg's book Long Quiet Highway. Yes, a person can change their life. Yes, a person can persue a life of writing.
But still, I did nothing.
Then Blogcritics happened.
Well, let's give this thing a go. Let's get over the fear of the unknown. What the hell am I going to say about this music? Do I have the words? Hmmm...I just might. Keep trying. Read more books. Stephen King's On Writing. Anne Lamott's Bird By Bird. All of it. More. More.
Now, to use another sort of cliché, I feel like I've got a freaking river running through me. It appears to be unstoppable.
Let's just hope that I can swim.
From: Duke de Mondo
To: The Hot Topic Team
Re: Creativity
I think my own approach to the whole writing affair has been altered beyond all sense in the past year or so. Used to be, if I watched something, it got written about, 99% of the time. What occurred was that a lot of the time, I ended up with sorta amusing at best screeds that maybe took an hour to write an then, as Bennett says, I’d spend the next week cringing at the bastards.
Nowadays that doesn’t happen any more, and it’s the rogue 2% of stuff that gets written about. What I sorta need to be feelin like, is like I’m attackin' the fuckin' keyboard. A man needs enough caffeine in the system to be able to batter the thing ruthlessly, 'til at the end there’s fifteen pages of maniacal gibberish that I’ll leave aside for a time, a day maybe, an' go back to, edit and the like. (If anyone’s actually read my damn stuff, it may seem odd that any such cutting and pasting occurs, but it does, yes.)
Article comments
1 - Alisha Karabinus
All these boys, boys, boys... is this male bonding or a discussion? :)
Two things: I loved S. King's On Writing more than probably anything else he's done it years... it was GREAT.
And second... I too am a victim of having a hard time composing anywhere but at the computer, at my computer, where things are comfy and nice. I thought that was maybe unique to me. I feel a little better now.
2 - Eric Berlin
I really like and admire your take on the writing process, and your attitude, Bennett. That's exactly how and me and everyone else improves. Writing begets better writing, writers write, and all that.
The really superfly nifty thing about the Internet, and Blogcritics in particular, is that it doesn't feel like work to write. It feels like fun; it feels like rapping with your old pals. I think that's when you really get better and really start to excel at something -- when you passionately bash away at a task over and over and over not because you have to (though that's the case with the wriitng bug at times) but because it's just far too fun to stop. How could you not stop? I'd say if asked -- it's too fun. Like a good addiction or something.
Alisha -- I think this column is a combo of male bonding and pontificating about cultural and mythical topics of the day. It came as a result of many e-mail back-and-forths and Mr. Smyth, I believe, wisely decided that everyone on the planet had better take a look at the genius that's ever unfurling.
3 - Bennett
Thanks Eric, likewise re your revelations. Man what a read this thing became! I'm gonna digest for a while, and then return with some comments on you guy'z take on it. Fun to drop into your heads for a bit, every one of ye.
4 - Elsa
Alisha has a point.
5 - Aaron, Duke De Mondo
Aaron, tremendous job of bringin all this mania to light. Like Bennett, i'm gonna go off an sleep an awake with a head filled wi comments for the flingin.
Regarding the fact that these males are all of the masculine variety, i understand and indeed agree, but this came about on account of an email group of a buncha fellas yackin to one another, as Eric pointed out. Sir Fleming, for one, has been vocal about the need for some feminine perspective on these things. and i agree with him, i might add. but it all stems from the email group thing, theere's only as many folks as you see listed up above, barring a couple highly valued folks who are missing, presumed knackered. the group wasn't set up for this purpose, this grew out of it, when the Topics took a turn for the Hot and Sir Smyth made his glorious suggestion. but i understand, yes.
6 - LegendaryMonkey
Elsa -- perhaps we haven't any points and THAT is the point!
Oh well, it's a good read anyway.
7 - Mat Brewster
Berlin you ride the caboose of these things only because you can't turn your shite in on time! But fantastic job pulling all our thought together and conclusion.
I'm all about the ladies. Man, I've been inviting the ladies to join us for scores and scores, but every time one comes along they take one look at this motley crue and flee like the dickens.
So shower up boys, and bring on the ladies.
8 - DJRadiohead
A very quick two cents...
I plan to read this wonderment directly but first must take the wife to whom I am married to go see HP4 at midnight tonight. ROCK!!
Alisha/LM (Her Royal Primateness)... that's why there are comments: for you to come straighten us silly boys out.
Sir Fleming & Co., I will have more on this directly.
9 - Eric Berlin
Berlin B busy, Brewster!!!
10 - vikk
Nice broad spectrum of opinion and process, gentlemen. Blogcritics is a terrific venue and hospitable to a varied group where each one enters the room with their own covered dish offering and sits down at the table to share. There's something for readers, conversationalists, debaters, and pontificators.
As for writing, well, I write to make sense of what I think and feel, and I write to share what I've discovered and/or learned. It seems to be a natural outgrowth of so many years of reading.
11 - Mat Brewster
Berlin better get his biddy butt in gear, or Brewster will bop his bouncy balls to Bermuda!
12 - Bennett
Thanks for that Vikk! We are curious as to why other folks write. What is the driving force behind it all?
Cheers!
13 - Greg Smyth
Finally got round to reading the whole thing, guys. Really enjoyed reading your opinions on the whole topic but DJR's hit me especially - looks like you're taking a new step forward into the unknown, my friend.
Also, Duke with the whole shrivelling up of the urge to write thing you hit the nail on the proverbial.
14 - DJRadiohead
I finally finished reading everyone's contribution. I have a new appreciation for how interesting some of you fuckers are.
Greg, thanks. I am feeling more energized than I have in quite some time. It's a good feeling.
Mat brought up something I hadn't considered... I spend as much of my disposable income as possible on media of some sort. I am mostly a music junkie but I have been known to watch a movie or crack a book every once in awhile. I guess that figures in to my own desire to create (bringing it all back to the opening monologue of Episode 6 of my podcast... see above).
And Duke... good news... you aren't bald at age 90 although the fringe ain't what it used to be.
15 - Greg Smyth
One thing I neglected to mention in the main post is just how much I detest these people who churn out ridiculous amounts of "How To Write A Novel" type guide books without having any recognisable talent/authority on whhich to hang their advice.
Obviously, people like Stephen King are worth listening to because, regardless of what you think of his writing on a personal level, there's no denying that the guy has been doing it long enough and made enough money from it to know what he's talking about.
All too often I get the feeling that a lot of people see the "How To Write" book as a valid alternative option to make money, rather than practicing what they preach. You wouldn't buy a "How To Write A Movie" book written by me, now would you. No, you'd go and buy Syd Field because, regardless of how despicably hack-like his ideas are, he's a screenwriting guru.
People should, if they really want to be writers, get down to the business of writing and be done with the hideous meta-career that every spineless no-hoper has constructed to cushion themselves from failure.
Like I said: if you want to be a writer, write.