Dear Elsa,
The past year has been rather messy, and I wonder at times if I am losing my mind. I know that I have a lot of character flaws and that the lifestyle I lead is unbalanced, but I can't seem to make myself change things for the better. Actually, I'm backsliding instead. I am restless and distracted when I should be concentrating on my work. And I fear that instead of becoming a more open person, I have become more and more of a misanthrope.
I understand that I need to concentrate, get out more, and lead a more balanced life - but understanding is different from doing. I don't mean to say that I haven't done anything, but maybe I'm not trying hard enough? I don't know. While I am aware the transition into adulthood can be tumultuous, it feels right now like I'm on a path of self-destruction. And I'm just not snapping out of it. Any ideas?
Falling Apart
Dear Falling,
It sounds as if a stern lecture and some kind of kick in the ass would be inside your comfort zone. And if you were having a Saturn transit, this is exactly what I would offer you, but this is not the case. Instead you’re having a Neptune transit, which invariably brings confusion and an inability to focus.
Imagine being tossed in the middle of ocean and it’s just as you describe. You mean to get to the beach, to solid ground... but you just can’t go against these enormous forces. How deep is the ocean, anyway? And you’re just this little girl out there… watching other people on the beach walk a straight line, while you remain disabled.
So the first thing to know is this is not permanent. Things will begin to clarify early next year. And one of the things about being 19 is you generally just don’t have enough years on the planet to put these things in perspective.
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1 - a reader
Great response Elsa. Just wonderful. :)
2 - Kathleen
That WAS a really great response! I too, am having a difficult Neptune transit--I'm 41, so I am having Neptune square my natal Neptune, plus it is Opposite my Leo Sun in the 11th, and to make matters more difficult, Pluto is on my IC, and both transits are pulling in by less than a degree as I write this. I feel like my whole life is completely NOT me, or not my life anymore--and yet I have NO clue how to change it, plus barely the energy. I'm 41 years old and I want children badly, and a mate--and it is not happening! (Neptune in 5th, opp Sun). Try being 41, an astrologer, and STILL have no clue what to do! Maybe submit is the answer. I feel like I should be more proactive, to get myself out of this, but I don't know how. I feel like an idiot!
3 - bob mitchell
brilliant answer - i too am a 62 year old astrologer with sun/asc leo.
i have to remind myself - God has got a say in all this too. go with the flow