Yesterday, I heard a blessed sound.
I heard a pin drop. Really. Distinctly. Loud and clear.
The noisy pin boinged its way out of yards of crinoline I had wedged under the pressure foot of my sewing machine. (Yes, I can sew. My current project was an undergarment for a wedding dress, guaranteed to lift the skirt. Mission accomplished. When completed, the petticoat was so puffy, it stood on its own volition in the middle of my family room.) The missile pin flew across the room, landing onto the sole of my nearby empty sandal, in a din heard 'round the world.
Okay, maybe not around the world. Certainly the boomeranging pin landed with enough decibels to awaken a sleeping Boston terrier. (She stirred.)
The reason for my glee in hearing a pin drop? My nest is empty, thankfully, finally, again. My visiting adult children have flown back to their lives in San Francisco, and I'm giddy in the resultant silence.
Call me broken, call me an ogre, but I was never one of those mothers who suffered from "empty nest syndrome." I am not June Cleaver all warm and fuzzy; I belong to the Facebook group Moms Who Drink and Swear. (June Cleaver would die. That's me, drinking and swearing.) Even so, friends warned that I should prepare for major depression once the birdies began to fly the coop. Sure, when the first child left for San Francisco just after his 18th birthday, the angst was palpable. After all, he was making a cross-country trip to college, 2,300 miles and four hours by plane away, to a Big (Foggy) City, where the nearest relatives resided in San Diego (another long drive), and that alone was scary. After he left, we missed his constant piano playing, not just the happy pieces (which were few and far between), but even the funeral dirges and the dissonant Russian compositions that used to make us cringe. At one time we begged him to stop practicing; but his absence made us take back every snarky comment we had made about Prokofiev. We even missed the sibling bickering a little.
Three years later, when Child #2 left for a West Coast college, we were ready for the respite. My daughter is many wonderful things, but her level of high drama is exhausting. During her high school years, this girl proved much more challenging to raise than her brother. However, friends warned me that my now truly empty nest would hit me like a ton of bricks, and I would be left bereft and pining for my children's return.
I waited, but this did not happen. Instead, something refreshing occurred.