Hey Elsa,
I recently started a new job at a very small non-profit in which I'm the only paid staffer. The board is made up of some powerful personalities. As I was reading through some old minutes, I realized there's a huge power struggle going on. One member even stepped down because of the in-fighting!
I like the job because it's something I believe in, I get to meet a lot of interesting people, and I might even make a difference in the world. I see much possibility to turn this operation around, as it's been run somewhat half-assed in the past. But I'm afraid of being sucked into this power battle.
This isn't the first time I've rushed headlong into an impossible problem, which no one seems to be able to figure out. It also happens that these problems often split the people I'm working with. I end up in the middle, trying to fight for the right thing, and getting angry with everyone before I either explode or quit. The problem is I can't separate my feelings - and only robots can partition emotions, frankly.
This also tends to happen with groups of friends; I've burned many bridges. It was much worse when I was younger, but seems to have gotten slightly better with age. My friends tell me I should bug out of there because I'm just killing myself. But I can't shake the feeling that I could change things and really make everything great.
Am I diving headfirst into a problem, which will swallow me whole? Or is it worth it to stick it out and try to turn things around?
Stuck in the Middle
Dear Stuck,
I think you should hang in there. Your friends are looking to help you, but they don’t understand that this is your destiny. With Aquarius rising and your Sun conjunct Uranus in the 10th house (career), you were born to stage a revolution at work! You want to go in there and disrupt the status quo for your humanitarian reasons. This is what makes you feel vitally alive!
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