Julianne Moore was right, "You don't know my fucking life..." And if you do, then perhaps you understand. Perhaps together, we can admit that of which we are supposed to be ashamed, like red-faced children - that we feel safer with these drugs, and if we're really honest, that they make us feel emotionally just that little bit better when It All Comes Down.
Sadi Ranson-Polizzotti
"A sinister cabal of superior writers."
Article comments
1 - Bob A. Booey
Nice confession. Thanks for sharing. I have a hard time focusing long enough to read what you write, but this is probably the most personal and cogent thing I've seen you write yet.
2 - Douglas Mays
Sadi, right on stuff! My wife and I dread having to deal with a different pharmacy than the ones that know us. Spouse takes mood stablizers and sleep meds for legitimate disorders. We would not be married if it weren't for certain meds. I have siezure disorder that requires meds. Hey, I gladly take them on schedule daily! Siezures really suck.
Anyway, I agree with what you posted. Certain drugs were created for specific reasons. Abuse by those who don't need them put people like us under the 'addict' suspicions. And doctors fears of even writing a needed script!
Ugh, I could go on...
you know what I mean.
peaceloveguidance
3 - Eric Olsen
Sadi, very honest, brave and thoughtful - painful to read, even - but rarely do we get such insight.
4 - srp
sorry to hear about the pharmacy issues - this is a major problem for many people with chronic pain. i just switched pharmacies for the first time in many years, because the new management was so judgemental about this, and in truth, there's nothing i can do about what i am prescribed to take, and i do not need to be judged by those who don't know me, my life, etc. - and neither do you. you have a right to better than treatment than that -- innocent until proven guilty, but sadly, often assumed guilty.
ah well.
never dwell.
just move on, keep it going, and be proud of all that you do DESPITE that kind of shit.
ya know?
srp
5 - Eric Olsen
the medical community and society in general are always trying to find the right balance between treatment and suspicion and the pendulum swings back and forth never quite finding the middle - this would seem to be one area where a personal relationship (with doctor, pharmacist) would make a huge difference
6 - Kmmjr
we get put on the durgs with never knowing what they can do to us benzos and ssri's in my case now i have to taper but that has not worked some doctors tell me this cant happen some say it can some just say your a lier to even have a life you have to buy off black markets because know will have you for what benzo durg makeer have done to people all the pain we have gone thouth they sad make a cure to set thing back to the why we use to be with all that money yhey make off of us this will not happen to more paople stand and fight back anyway they can. email me if you like.