And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your strength. And you must commit yourselves wholeheartedly to these commands that I am giving you today. Repeat them again and again to your children. Talk about them when you are at home and when you are on the road, when you are going to bed and when you are getting up. Tie them to your hands and wear them on your forehead as reminders. Write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.
- Deuteronomy 6:5-9
I have entered into a season in my life that I know is a season ordained by God. I am experiencing a time in my life that I would have never expected for myself as a mom, which is difficult, but I am confident that God has allowed this time for a purpose.
I am going through a refining. God is molding and shaping me, preparing me for something great. I wholeheartedly believe that He has something planned for my life and though I cannot see the destination, it will absolutely be worth the crazy ride I have journeyed across over the past few years.
I will admit that several months ago I was devastated by my circumstances and walking around in total disbelief at what was taking place in my life. I can now confidently say, Thank you, God for the journey that You are taking me on.
As I have been pondering the story of the woman at the well lately, I have come to recognize that I had a great need for the Living Water of Christ in my life. For many years, I lived a life where my cup was not running over and I felt it. I was constantly walking around looking for what I needed to fill my cup and nothing in my life satisfied. My heart longed to follow Him but my heart was committed to five other loves that consumed every part of my heart, making it impossible to belong totally to Him. As I was a mom, my children consumed my attention, making it that much harder to really see what was lacking in my life. I spent so much time looking to family, friends, my children, activities, and possessions for approval and affirmation, but they were never enough, until one day, they were removed and my need was revealed.