I don't want to hurt his feelings. Is it really your choice? Is it really your prerogative? Does choice come at the expense of a guy's self-respect? Does your prerogative mean that the man's right to be informed is denied? This boils down to a question of whose rights are more important, his to be informed and to be respected, or hers to choose?
I don't know if this question has ever weighed heavily in a woman's mind as she's dodging your phone calls or shooting back tepid, one-word answers by text message. Facebook has made it even more simple (and ultimately painful) to see how a woman deals with a situation like this. People can spend hours and hours shooting out pointless status updates, but they will conveniently ignore your wall post or private message. You don't even have to be watching the newsfeed. It happens; girls are "busy." People are "busy." Selectively.
Are women evil? Not all and not fundamentally, but I'm in the process of coming to believe that a large part of their insecurity morphs into a drunkenness with power, realizing that they have a choice of men at their behest. I don't think many women choose to be like this. However, over time, after being screwed over by a string of guys, the power to injure and deceive becomes infinitely more attractive. Those women who do want mates find them. Those who don't, those who don't really want one, really don't want you. When I meet a girl and I like her, and I want to pursue her, one thought starts to drive me: are you a liar? Are you dishonest? Will you fuck me over? Perhaps Deepers have a lot in common with women; we're both very insecure. We both eye each other with the same longing for companionship and then assail each other silently with our fears.
Yes. I'm an injured guy, a wounded Deeper. And the purpose of this essay is not to be a soapbox to attack women because I can't do it otherwise. I could go out now and injure a woman. I don't need to hide behind a blog and the written word to vent. All I need is to reach a intellectual and emotional state where acting out my unbridled hurt and anger is completely valid to me. It's an illusion that only a select few men can come over themselves to hurt and injure women. All guys can do it, no one is immune from this supposed moral no-no. We think that we can protect ourselves with our backgrounds, upbringings, or religious convictions. We think that we're fundamentally different from sexual deviants. Guys who beat their partners are guys who drink beer and pay taxes and wear trousers. Nothing really differentiates me or the next guy from a wife-beater or a serial rapist; the latter two simply act on their convictions about women. What most guys do is perhaps restrict themselves to the odd dark thought or two, or the customary woman-bashing in the company of the lads.