If you could do it all over again, would you change anything? Would you change one or two things? Would you go to a different college, marry a different spouse, have kids sooner, have them later, or really be smart and not have any kids and just travel? (That last example was a joke.)
I have pondered this question before. But I wasn't pondering it while sitting in a canoe in the middle of a peaceful lake as Mark, my one and only, was rowing and smiling at me and simultaneously confessing his love for me!
No, it usually comes when the kids are screaming, Mark and I are disagreeing over something stupid, or I am dropping off the kids in the carpool lane and I have waited for ten minutes to get to the front and realize the mother two cars ahead of me has gotten out of her car, zipped up Johnny's jacket, kissed him ten times, checked his lunch, combed his hair, given him another hug, and done one more homework check. That is when my kids say, "Mom, please don't say anything, you will embarrass us. Mom, please just roll up your window, we're right on time." I reluctantly shut my mouth even though I want to scream out the window, "Listen lady, this is a drop-off lane – your kid gets out; you stay in and drive off." I never do, for I know a battle of words would ensue and God forbid I don't get the last word in.
In all honesty, I ponder this question when reflecting on my mistakes, my poor judgment, and my downfalls.
People tend to hang on to the bad stuff and forget the good stuff, especially if their lives have been overcome by negativity and turmoil. If that was your life, you're the type of person who really doesn't know how to enjoy a sunny day; instead, you are always waiting for the thunderstorm to arrive. That was me for a long long time.
Humans are creatures of habit, and I was used to chaos, not peace. I am sure many of you are nodding your heads in agreement. You ask, how do I embrace who I am and the hand that I was dealt? You look within and realize what those experiences have taught you and try to see all the good that has come out of your life, not the bad. Let the bad go, it does you no good!