I wondered about Dick Clark last night, sounding so frail and fragile and wondered if he had wanted to be out there "rockin in the New Year" or if this was his agent's idea. I'm assuming it was his, but regardless it made me sad, but probably for my own reasons. If Dick Clark is aging, then so am I, I thought and I felt not only for him in that moment, but for myself and my own little family - more reminders of mortality. No amount of Veuve Cliquot can cure you of this unsettled feeling. No doubt, Dick wanted to be there and no doubt, i'll get over myself as well, but that doesn't make the point any less valid; that each New Year is but a reminder of what is to come and then, what may never come again. The bitter and the sweet (and you do need both) because the sweet is never so sweet without the bitter...
I welcome the year; I open all the doors and windows to let the old year out and the new year in (an old European custom that we used to do when I was little) and I take it full on with the succor it demands while still knowing that I need to remember this moment, that I need to remember this day because snap your fingers and it will be gone.
Have a great 2006; relish every moment of it.
s.r.p.
Article comments
1 - swingingpuss
Sadi, you are a mother of pearls; offlate you've been dropping pearls of wisdom at frequent pace :)
2 - sadi ranson-polizzotti
Hi swinging puss:
First, Happy 2006 to you ! and second, i couldn't ask for a better review than what you just offered. Thank you so so much.... i was having a lousy day and you just turned it around.
:)
rock on...
sade
3 - swingingpuss
Happy New Year to you too :)
On a personal note, its been five years since my dad's passing and my mom is still mad with him for leaving her behind.
A month ago she told me that he probably had some new girlfriend in heaven and was partying while she was braving the world alone.
I found the statement to be a little weird and told her as much and today you post the same thought.
Too much of a coincidence don't you think?
I've been having a few too lousy days myself with my daughter teething and all but I keep telling myself - this too shall pass
4 - uao
Heya Sadi:
This is a beautiful piece.
I don wanna get old and ugly and die either, but I'm halfway there.
I guess I look at New Years as a chance to forgive my enemies, reaffirm my love for loved ones, mourn those who are gone, take stock and look to the future and beyond.
It's very bittersweet. But never forget the sweet part.
And always remember: the older you are, the more you know. That's a good thing, too.
Happy New Year Sadi, and all other Blogcritics!
5 - sadi ranson-polizzotti
dear Uao: don't feel bad - i feel old and ugly too but the main thing is how you are inside and how those who love you perceive you. I"m fortunate to have a husband who thinks i'm just the bee's knees and vice versa... i'm nowhere near ready to give that up, to get closer to our inevitable parting (til death and all that...) I pray there is some "great reunion" but who knows. Even if there is not, i tell myself there is as some great comfort.
Life goes so quickly; i could have been sixteen yesterday, and vrooom, here i am now (no, i'm not giving my age. suffice to say i'm GenX). It goes fast and if i had known that when younger, i would have savored it more, not wasted so much time on dinks who never deserved my attention and so on, But that's all 20/20. As you say, you get wiser. And thank God for that!
Be well, and thanks for reading, Uao...
s.
6 - Scott Butki
Excellent thought-provoking piece.
7 - sadi ranson-polizzotti
Hi Scott: many thanks, and all good wishes to you for a happy, healthy 2006 - be well ;-)
s.
8 - Scott Butki
Thanks. You too.