Those who live a life of religion never know true life in Christ. The only way to experience the abundant life is living a life that reflects Christ by staying out of God’s way, allowing Him to work while loving those who need His love.
Who would ever have thought that after 20 years together, my marriage would unravel into a huge mess?
So many are still trying to figure out just what happened and how it all fell apart. I cannot blame them. I even look at the picture and wonder how it became so distorted. I do not even recognize the couple in the pictures anymore and I am not even sure I know where they have gone.
Many have wondered and questioned how someone who claims to follow Christ could allow her marriage to end. So much can happen between two people over 20 years. I am here to say that unless you have walked in another’s shoes or lived behind their closed doors, it is impossible to understand why things happen the way they do. I can however say that it is in fact possible to love God with the entirety of your heart and allow a marriage to end.
I chose to keep my secrets in regards to my marriage close to my heart. Some were for selfish reasons and others to protect my husband. There were few friends I shared my struggles with but even when I did, they never were aware of all the details. That has now changed. I found this quote by Muriel Rukeyser: “What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open." It has opened my eyes. I have realized that my life is not my own. My story is not mine to keep a secret. As a child of God, my story is part of His story and it is meant to be shared. It has become time for me to peel away the layers.
I have spent much time reading Oswald Chambers. One point he made was that our lives are not private. When we follow Christ, our lives become a display of His work that is meant to be shared so others may see. As horrible as my experiences have been, I am now even more certain that I am to share my journey and how I survived with the help of Christ and Christ alone.