Dear Elsa,
I am a lesbian. I met a woman and we became fast friends...and then more. We were physical once, but after that it was as if we were a couple to us (and everyone around). She lived in Houston and I in Galveston, but for 7 months we saw each other every weekend...lived together you could say. On the weekdays, we spoke on the phone all the time. We were playing house...it bothered me because I wanted more.
When she was drunk, she would say we were dating. When sober, we were just special friends. I felt that sooner or later she would hurt me and I wouldn't survive the pain. So I ended it a week ago. For weeks I tried to explain I was in love with her, but she would evade the problem. So I told her that although I was in love with her, I didn't want to see her anymore.
I feel I did the right thing but I miss her soooo badly it actually hurts. I am second guessing myself now, but I feel she won't talk to me even if I tried.
Any words of comfort?
Heart Aching
Dear Aching,
Comfort? I don’t know. Depends on what you find comforting. If you want reassurance that you did the right thing, I am sure you did. It sounds like the relationship left you in a constant state of hunger. Do you like being hungry? Well, you probably did there for awhile — it’s romantic and sexy to pine. But inevitably reality intrudes and this is where you’re at.
Besides your Pisces Moon, you have Venus conjunct Neptune. People with Venus tied up with Neptune tend to get drunk on love. They are also famous for falling for drunks, addicts, and those otherwise impaired. But they’re investing in a hologram and eventually the curtain lifts, exposing the strings behind the puppet. When that happens - EEK!
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