When I was in grade school, instead of advancing me two grades like the school recommended, my parents decided to keep me with my "friends." As a consequence, I was bored to tears by school and was completely disenchanted with formal education by the time I graduated.
Since my father wouldn't allow me to take a year off, I chose a school that was rated as being academically rigorous by the college guidebooks. When I got there, I was once again disappointed by not feeling challenged. So after my first semester, I didn't apply myself at all, got a 1.2 GPA over four semesters, and left school. After that, I worked in a lot of dead-end jobs just to make the rent.
My last job was as a receptionist in a mental health practice. Working there, I finally decided to return to school to become a psychologist. The problem? I quit my job at the end of 2005. Since then, my Original School has put a hold on my records and I can't get them sent to Transfer School, which I've already applied to. The home business that I want to start while I'm a student has yet to become more than a pipe dream. And to top it all off, I'm reading scary things about Saturn in Leo and life-changing transits coming up.
I'm freaking out just a little bit. I've never really had to work all that hard for what I wanted... things just came my way (or not), and I went along with it. But now I'm afraid that I've screwed things up with my complacence and procrastination.
I guess I want either reassurance or a swift kick in the rear. Why has this gone down the way it has?