Well for those of you who are concerned with my present physical and mental state. I am not a junkie. I am not gay, although I wish I were, just to piss off homophobes. Ive had a rather unconclusive and uncomfortable stomach condition for the past 3 years which by the way is not related to stress which also means it is not an ulcer. Because there is no pattern to the burning, nauseaus pain in my upper abdominal cavity, I never know when it will happen, I can be at home in the most relaxed atmosphere sipping natural spring water, no stress, no fuss and then WHAM! like a shotgun: stomach time. Then I can play 100 live performances in a row, guzzle boric acid & do a zillion television interviews and not even a burp. This has left doctors with no ideas except the usual: here Kurt, try another peptic ulcer pill and lets jam this fibre optic tube with a video camera in it down your throat for the 3rd time and see whats going on in there. Again. Yep your in pain alright. Your stomach is extremely inflamed and red. Try eating ice cream from now on. Please lord, f--k hit records, just let me have my very own unexplainable rare stomach disease named after me. And the title of our next double album, "Cobain's disease."
So after protein drinks, becoming a vegetarian, exercise, stopping smoking, and doctor after doctor I decided to relieve my pain with small doses of heroine for a walloping 3 whole weeks. It served as a band-aid for a while but then the pain came back so I quit. It was a stupid thing to do and Ill never do it again and I feel real sorry for anyone who thinks they can use heroine as a medicine because um, duh, it don't work. Drug withdrawal is everything you've ever heard. You puke, you falail around, you sweat, you s-t your bed just like that movie "Christiane F." It's evil. Leave it alone.
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— go to most recent comments1 - Steve Rhodes
I was just about to write something up on this.
Lorraine Ali has a cover story on Nirvana.
There are links from it to the You Know You're Right video and images of Cobain's diary pages in his handwriting including this description of the band asking for a loan of $2,000 to make a record and writing Smells Like Teen Spirit.
And there is more text excerpts.
2 - cristian
esta muy piola la pagina loco.
Aguanye nirvana siempre
3 - Marigold
Beautiful and simple all in one. Not a higher lifeform and Kurt never wanted to be but think about this! Because a person is dead it doesn't entitle the wife to go sell their journal to society for 4 million bucks. If Kurt was alive he'd probably call this rape and he's righr. Would you like you your journal printed into thousands of copies and then sold for $30 all over the world when you died? Why do we look at Kurt like a celebrity instead of an all-emotion-feeling human being?
4 - Eric Olsen
were I Kurt, I would be torn between wanting to provide for my family and resentment at the impositions Marigold rightly mentions. But I would also be dead
5 - Eric Olsen
by my own hand, I might add
6 - Mingmar
kurt cobain was a great person.
and he have his image in the whole world.
he is only one in the world and no one can be like him
7 - Dr.Nenix (Nishad)
curt is ....hmmm.....he is not limited in these few words but sayin in few words he is ....chill...grunge....n one of the great singer of this earth
8 - isabel
Great but dead... I wonder if there or where .. would be someone like him
9 - Michael P.
Dead, yes, but happy in the end, I think. Sometimes suicide is like the only option for people like him. He was too sensitive, he liked people too much, so much that it made him sad. Dead. Whatever. Nevermind.
10 - Eric Olsen
I'm not sure I would come to that conclusion: if anything he greatly increased the amount of unhappiness in the world, especially among those he supposedly loved most
11 - kathy hernandez
even though kurt was know as a man of mystery, he will always be remember. by all his fans and family.dead or alive people still listen to kurts music
12 - ninutschka
kurt cobain was a great person.and nirvana was a very good band.never boring...good wishes to the hell
by ninutschka
13 - Rosa_Martinez
Kurt is amazing, even if he is dead. He's a great talented vocalist and songwriter. I don't beleive he created more unhappiness then joy, because everytime I listen to his records I feel good and understood and even though I think it sucks that he killed himself, I don't blame him because sometimes people honestly feel that is all they have left in the world. KURT ROCKS! NIRVANA ROCKS!
14 - Michael P.
I don't think that anyone in this world would have understood him, Cobain was an artist and artists experience things in another way we do.
That's one of the reasons why so many artists use drugs (also smoking, alcohol, ...), they want to ease the "pain" and chaos inside their troubled mind. Drugs in combination with depressions and a hell of a childhood make people commit suicide, however I don't think it's a good idea. Let's say I understand it.
15 - Eric Olsen
thanks for clarifying that Michael
16 - Dr. Tristan, M.D.
It's extremely hard for anyone that has or is undergoing the pain & discomfort Cobain was undergoing, to try and describe that in all it's splendor to a person who has never been there ..........
The fact of being in such distress that you would attempt to belay it by using heroin or crack or whatever, is beyond the ken of anyone who hasn't been there .......
for anyone to even ATTEMPT to describe or explain or rationalize it, or criticize it--- is NOT within their ability.
17 - Cerulean
His diaries are eerie and affecting. Shows the torture of a sensitive person alive in this world. I don't know how he would have felt about all of his journals being made public but this excerpt seems like it would have been o.k. Whether he was in private or in public, he was still in pain.
18 - Michael P.
You're welcome, Eric.
That's just my opinion.
19 - adriano
yeah
kurt
COUTNEY you beat
20 - abbie
well i love nirvava dont get me wrong and there one of my favourite bands but we will never understand why kurt killed himself(or did he?!) and if it was because they went mainstream then i dont really understand that because lots of bands have gone mainstream and it didnt effect them it seems it only affected kurt in the band as dave grohl is pretty happy in his band foo fighters who are also mainstream so i guess it was just kurt who was fucked up not what was going on in his life but i guess we already knew that didnt we and im just chatting shit
21 - Aaman
Are you high?
22 - Eric Olsen
someone stole abbie's punctuation - very mean and worth very little on the black market
23 - lala
how is it possible to love lyrics you don't understand? crave music that brings out the addict and depressant in you? i don't know, but that's how i feel about nirvana...
24 - lalo
ponganla en español
25 - Jay
Kurt was the greatest , henever gave a damn what others thought , he just kept going with his music ... but you never know what you want until its gone.