As Kitty Foth-Regner’s mother lay in a morphine-induced coma in a nursing home dying, she wracked her brain for something that would bring a sense of closure to her mother’s life. A devout Christian woman, Regner’s mother had prayed unceasingly for her daughter to come to a saving faith, to put her trust in Jesus, to join her in heaven. As her journals later revealed, her sweet Kitty’s lost state was the one unsettled note in a life fully lived. She couldn’t imagine Heaven Without Her.
Searching her mind for something that would encourage her mother to release her tenuous grasp on life, Regner whispered, “I’ll see you there Mom.” There being heaven, of course.
It was a promise, one that I intended to keep. Of course, I had no idea what this could possibly mean.
Shaken to the core by the loss of her deeply beloved mother, Regner dives into the search for God with a systematic ferocity that leaves no stone unturned. Seeking first to determine if God exists, she uncovers the evidence and questions critically. After finding that there is in fact a divine, creative force at work she goes on to discard one belief system after another as she tries to determine which God is the one in charge. In her memoir of spiritual discovery Regner shares her findings, the paths she explored, the proof she found, her skepticism, and eventual discovery of the truth.
With a history of technical and copy writing as a career, Regner’s prose is lucid, witty, and terribly accurate. A pleasure to read, her descriptions accurately capture her life pre-conversion, during the muddling searching times, and post-conversion. When I think back to my own journey in faith everything she writes rings true. The mocking disdain of God and His followers, the surrender, the irrepressible spontaneity of evangelization; though our stories are different they’re the same. The story of Jesus in pursuit of His bride – I’m sure many readers will resonate with her memoir.