I always tend to compare this to the Iraq war, namely the exit strategy part. It seems we went into Iraq without an exit strategy, and it seems I went into this diet without an exit strategy. I am working it out for myself now, realizing quickly that I am going to have to keep with the eating for a good long time, and eventually I will have to start lifting weights in order to convert the leftover fat into muscle.

More and more, I am coming to grips with those realities, but that doesn't mean I fully accept them yet. Maybe if I prolong this saga I can have a little more fun, right? I think that's a cynical way of looking at my subconscious, but probably not inaccurate.

I have to keep 240 in mind throughout because it is where I want to be. I also must realize there will be rewards once this diet officially (but not really) ends. I won't have to worry about losing weight anymore. I won't have to pick and choose my spots for off days quite as carefully, and I can lift off some of the guilt I feel when I screw up. First, though, I'll have to figure out the way to live a normal life that is not wrought with daily binges or filled with dread over caloric intake. I've gone from one extreme to the other, and back and forth again, and It will be time to find the proper middle ground.

The Blog
As you may have noticed, partly because I told you this would happen, I have cut back the blog entries to once a week. I think that was a mistake, in a way, because it cut off the biggest part of my support system. Hell, even if I am only writing this for Alexandria (my main commenter on Blogcritics), that would help immensely. I know I need to be able to do this for someone other than myself no matter how flawed that thinking may be. Like I said earlier, that is the reality I am dealing with.

I am not yet willing to commit to three or more entries per week, though. I still think you deserve fresh entries instead of rehashed progress reports, but maybe you'll get those a little bit more just so I can check in and feel your wrath and congratulations on the day's events. We'll see. I do know I lost sight of why I do this blog - partly because there was a lack of comments pouring in, which I felt meant a lack of interest.