I rose through the ranks rapidly and was quite successful as an Intelligence Officer, as I’m with most things I put my mind to. Consumption of copious amounts of alcohol mostly contributed to the fact that I always “under-achieved” in my opinion. (I am now a dry alcoholic).

Africa Will Always Break Your Heart details my career, and my life during the awful apartheid period I was part of the problem, and yet when I tried to become part of the solution even bigger challenges were sent my way.

I now live in exile in Sweden. Even though by choice I will always see myself as being in exile. I sometimes long so much for the country of my birth that my chest physically hurts. Reading a newspaper online about all the murders, mayhem and chaos prevalent quickly cures me of my longing though.

Africa Will Always Break Your Heart is a very powerful book, and one that you should be very proud of. It also has burnt many bridges for you. Was it worth it?

Thank you very much for that comment. I believe that most people who possess the ability to do introspection and are willing to be honest about their flaws and shortcomings have a unique story to tell. Not only me. If I have to be proud about anything relating to my book it will have to be the honesty with which it was written. It was no easy road and admitting to my shortcomings and faults was indeed a very difficult thing to do. I knew that I had done the right thing when my 16 year old boy told me that he was proud of me and the fact that I could admit to my failings as a human being. So yes, I am indeed proud and will hold my head high in the face of fierce criticism. A little purging of the soul does one the world of good and I can strongly recommend it to the likes of Peter Davies to consider but more of that later.

Most of the bridges were already burnt for me after speaking out against the apartheid-regime. The fact that I introduced the concept and/or revealed The Third Force was definitively not appreciated by the powers to be, and after that very little was left for me in South Africa. But yes, by publishing this book the hatred against me was once again resurrected and the same threats, from the same group of people, started surfacing. This time aimed not only towards me but also aimed at my wife.

I think the reason was the fact that the Afrikaner way of life with their double standards was brought up. Is the truth worth it? Definitely.

It is my story, my memories, how unsavoury it might be. But having lived a lie for most of my life had to be put to an end. I know that many people will disagree but still, it is my story and I have stuck to the truth as I knew it.