Bootleg Country: Nirvana - 10/31/91
Published June 23, 2006
Back about 12 years or so I was a counselor at a summer camp. It was a great couple of weeks spent playing games in the sunshine, hanging out with old friends, and mentoring young people. At the time I thought there would be nothing better than being a teacher, a molder of young minds.
The decade since either brought me to my senses, or slipped right by me.
During one of the weeks at camp, I had to go to a concert I had no interest in. While there I bumped into a girl I'd become acquainted with a few months back. We began chatting it up and digging on each other.
I noticed some scratches on her arm and listened, fascinated, as she told me how she had etched "Kurt Forever" into her skin with a knife. This was not long after Kurt Cobain's suicide. Like a million other young people who are perpetually affected by such things, she took this selfish act to heart.
This was long before I understood terms like "scarring" or that thousands of young people do such things to themselves every day. I didn't understand the pain or the crying out such things often represent. I simply thought it was a pretty cool thing to do, if rather weird. While I was saddened and angered by Cobain's act, the thought of carving up my own skin because of it was something of incompressibility.
Around the same time I heard "Come As You Are" on the radio, which was followed by some smart-alecked DJ making sarcastic comments about Cobain lying when he sang, "And I swear that I don't have a gun."
My friend, who happened to be a girl who later became something of a girlfriend, became very upset at this comment. She couldn't understand how someone could joke about the death of an artist, and certainly not the suicide of a genius.
These days when I think about Nirvana, I think about those two girls and their incredibly strong reactions towards the band, its singer, and the songs they produced. In my full-on grunge days I dug the crap out of Nirvana (though truth be told I was always a Pearl Jam man) but these days they barely garner a 'meh.'
Mat Brewster is an American stumbling as an ex-pat through the streets of Shanghai. He is helped by his lovely wife and an enormous piles of bootleg DVDs. He is chronicling his adventures in the Shanghai Diaries and musing on pop culture at The Midnight Cafe.
- Bootleg Country: Nirvana - 10/31/91
- Published: June 23, 2006
- Type: Review
- Section: Music
- Filed Under: Music: Live Concerts, Music: Punk Rock, Music: Rock
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It's interesting to hear how people of "our" generation (young Gen X-ers, I suppose, I'm 32) came across Nirvana. It sounds as though your musical tastes and perhaps relative youth put you in a different place with regard to Nirvana as compared to me.
I grew up listening to straight classic rock: Led Zep, Hendrix, Cream, Doors, Jefferson Airplane. The hair metal scene turned me off completely, particularly because assholes at my high school seemed to embody everything that was wrong about a band like Guns N Roses... or, more typical of the times, Winger or Firehouse or Cinderella.
In any event, my "Beatles moment" came on a day I came home from high school, flipped on MTV, and saw the video for Smells Like Teen Spirit playing on the "buzz bin" (if I'm not mistaken). I was listening to something completely different, and I liked it a lot.
I caught the In Utero tour in late '93 in Buffalo New York and it was one of the best live shows I've ever seen.
Very nice review, especially because it's a rather different perspective and not a fanboyish review :)
Thanks folks. Even though I've gotten out of my Nirvana phase, I'd still take them over the fighters of foo.
EB, I was a straight top 40 kid. Which having grown up in the late 80s early 90s (I'm 30) meant lots of hair metal, pseudo rappers like Young MC, MC Hammer, and dance pop like Paula Abdul.
When Nirvana hit I fell in love with the grunge/alternative scene. I loved Pearl Jam, Soundgarden, the Cure, Dinosaur Jr all that stuff.
Now I much prefer acoustic guitars and horns to amped up metal. Nirvana is more nostalgia for me than anything else.
Thanks aJ. I think I was a fanboy once, but again my tastes have gone in other directions in the ten odd years since Nevermind.
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nice review sir brewster. i came to Nirvana sort of late in the game. didn't really love Nevermind all that much, but got hooked when i read an article about them and some of the subject matter on In Utero (especially the creepy "Scentless Apprentice").
then i went back and picked up Nevermind.
alla that said, for some reason i still have more fun listening to The Foo Fighters.