Dear Elsa,

I've had an ongoing spiritual crisis since my first son was born. I'd hoped find my path by the time my children were old enough to be greatly affected. But here it is Christmastime again, and I am no closer to finding my way.

I fear that my kids are adrift as well - at least my older one who is four. Our family went to church a bit when he was very small and we even decided to have him baptized. I agonized over the decision, and felt like a hypocrite for doing it. The younger one is not baptized yet and I would feel an even greater hypocrite to do so while in the midst of this crisis.

This time of year is especially hard because I so miss the Christian church's music and tradition. Yet everything I do toward finding deeper meaning feels hypocritical. I've been leaning toward Buddhism and Universal Unitarianism but have yet to attend a service. My husband and I both grew up Lutheran and he wants to find a church with the kind of liturgy he remembers. Meanwhile he is content not to search.

I worry that my kids are suffering because of my own confusion. Do I still have time to ground myself?

Uncommitted Mom

Dear Mom,

I don't think your kids are suffering. I think their mother is a Sagittarian. Sagittarians are seekers and there is nothing wrong with that.

On the grounding though, I wouldn't hold my breath. You're obviously a person on the move on many levels, so how are you going to lock your kids up in a small space? You're not. You're far more likely to expose them to a wide range of belief systems. You're far more likely to educate them and allow them freedom to choose.

So what about the family, huh? Well, you've have your Moon conjunct Uranus and it's a given that you're going to break ranks. The Moon rules the family and with Uranus involved, you're going to want to innovate and make your own rules. And as you can see, this is exactly what you're doing.

So what about your kids? Well, I think they're fine. They have an eccentric Sagittarius seeker for a mother and I doubt it's an accident. Your parents taught you one thing and you grew up and took it from there. You will teach your kids what you teach them, and they'll grow up and take it from there.

Sounds good to me. Sounds like evolution.

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