http://blogcritics.org/ A sinister cabal of superior bloggers on music, books, film, popular culture, politics, and technology - updated continuously. en Copyright 2005-2007 by the authors Tue, 2 Sep 2008 05:45:13 EDT http://backend.userland.com/rss Blogcritics.org custom software http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-744257 I know exactly how you feel. 744257@blogcritics.org Tue, 2 Sep 2008 05:45:13 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-741748 It's true. I lost my best friend this year, my boyfriend of six years and now Sinead O'conner's "nothing compares 2 U" plays over and over again in my head. I feel a loss like nothing I've ever felt, a pain that will will never leave. I have lost the best part of my soul... 741748@blogcritics.org Sun, 24 Aug 2008 04:41:56 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-741669 i miss my lover hussain so much...i hope if i live with him one day if he forgive...remember me ..let your heart free..i weat u .Lili 741669@blogcritics.org Sat, 23 Aug 2008 20:02:19 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-741589 My question for you is this: Looking back now from where you are, to when you wrote this, have you healed? Have you changed? When my love left me, I was broken. Four years have passed and since him no one has ever been able to make me feel as he did. Then I begin to wonder to myself, "If he were to come back today, would I even have him?" But this is something that I just don't know the answer to. I mean, how much suffering and heartache does one allow themself to go through before you're fed-up? And I want to be fed up. I want to be done. I've passed though the depressing period... I've been in other relationships... I'm happy with my life. I've got my trust in God. But the one thing that is missing is that FEELING that you get from someone who drastically changed your life forever only because they made you feel true love. Real love. No one can ever know the feeling unless they've been there too. It's indescribable and you can't ever quite put your finger on it. And you wake up every day believing that someone is going to come into your life to make you forget that person... finally. I think we can only truly let go when another love comes that trumps the past, for that's what he did for me so many years ago. It's quite insane that to this very day I still get in contact with him. It's usually about every six months... I'm trying to make it to a year. Things are going along great and you're happy, but then the person shows up in your dream and it's so real that you can hear, really hear, their voice. And then you begin to lose the battle in your mind when you're surfing the online dream dictionary about what it could have meant. You check your horoscope and it tells you that you'll hear from someone far away. That tiny voice tells you to shoot him an email or call and you give in and do it... And you wait for a reply, or do almost anything to get their attention. I have respect for others who have felt this way because we are really the only ones who can truly know what real love feels like. I can only step back and consider myself one of the lucky ones. You should too. You got to feel what it's like to love someone with all your heart. And whether we ever get the chance to feel it again or not, at least we know the feeling. That's pretty lucky considering all the hate in our world today, don't you think? :} FYI If you click the URL and there's not much to it, it's because it's new and I'm still working on it, so be nice :) 741589@blogcritics.org Sat, 23 Aug 2008 13:39:27 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-735779 you dont know how good it feels to know that someone else feels exactly as i do. beautifully written and it really got to me. i love the bit about filling the void, your so right. your friends drag you out and try to make you have fun, but no matter what you do to fill that void nothing can. thank you so much for this. makes me feel that little bit less alone. 735779@blogcritics.org Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:35:50 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-717989 I read your words and I could have written them myself. What can I say, I lost my best friend, my lover 6 weeks ago, I know he still loves me but circumstances keep us apart. Those silly things I want to share, the cuddles, the laughter, the void, that dam emptiness and longing that burns in to my soul with every breath, every beat of my heart. 717989@blogcritics.org Wed, 14 May 2008 17:17:46 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-712438 I stumbled upon your blog in self-pitty. My first love crushed me eight months ago and I'm still fighting the heartbreak (rediculous I know). Your words spoke directly to my heart. Thank you for sharing your talent as a write and I wish you the best of luck. 712438@blogcritics.org Sun, 20 Apr 2008 22:37:46 EDT http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-682340 ive felt your sadness. bt i dnt understand. why do actually have to let him go? why fo u have be strong and independant even if trusting him wld be so hard for you? i ddnt let mine slip from my fingers. good luck with filling that void and good luck in... well just luck in general. 682340@blogcritics.org Sun, 23 Dec 2007 09:35:12 EST http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-649940 Thank you for this, I have just read this and its made me feelfive million times better to know that I'm not alone in this feeling. I know that you are sad, but Im glad you know that you willbe fine, and this helped me realise this for myself, Thanks again and good luck 649940@blogcritics.org Tue, 6 Nov 2007 19:30:41 EST http://blogcritics.org/archives/2006/03/04/104415.php#comment-583952 I miss him too. I don't think he knows I do. I was being hunted, as in pursued and couldn't figure out why or what was going on. I had forgotten what it was like to be pursued. I had the gut feeling, but doubted. I loved the feeling I got from him. I was on cloud nine, still am. I still get that feeling. I couldn't handle it anymore, so I approached him and asked him if he was feeling the same way I was? It took him awhile, but after a sigh, he said he wasn't and that he is sorry he gave me that impression. I said, ok and hung up the phone. We didn't speak for two weeks. Then he called me on the phone and asked if he could bring me something work related. On all days, he choose to do this on his birthday. Since then we have been talking, but I have been trying to keep it work related. I still see the rubbing of the face, the glances and stares. Recently, he was very sick. I made him chicken soup, which he ate for three days in a row. He really appreciated the chicken soup. I think he knows I like him. I can't stare him in the eyes for too long. I get nervous when I am around him. And of course, I work with him, not alot. Just here and there. He sends the checks out to me. My income. I hate that. He went out of town a couple of times. I missed him then and missed him again. But I am trying to let time take its course. After all I am in the process of getting a divorce and trying to live independently from everything/body. The last two times he left, I wished him a safe trip. I think I need to leave this alone and appreciate his presence in my life. Sad that I have this great feeling I would like to see through, but don't have the courage for fear that I would be rejected. I still think he likes me, but he's separated mind and body and is behaving in a calculate manner and being very cautious. 583952@blogcritics.org Sat, 28 Apr 2007 19:33:40 EDT