the status | epilepticus

Written by Sadi Ranson-Polizzotti
Published April 04, 2005
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The point is, epilepsy is often hidden and lurks about waiting for the moment to sabotage your brain, to take over, to cross the corpus collosum and cause those rigid jerks that we've come to know and identify as uniquely epileptic, but more, epilepsy causes sad states of confusion, delirium that to the outside observer may look well like someone who is drunk or on drugs, but obviously the distinction is important: one requires immediate and prompt hospitalization (epilepsy, of course) and the other, to go home and sleep it off peacefully we hope.

Note too that there is in both cases a shift in social attitude. Being drunk or on drugs will influence how you are treated, likewise with epilepsy. How many times have been accused of or thought of being on drugs when all along I needed medical help and attention. The scariest part of epilepsy for me is not knowing whether or not anyone will call for help; will they recognize the signs? Will they see the two medic-alert bracelets on my wrist? Will they do the right thing - or will they write me off as an addict and leave me to wander into oncoming traffic or worse. The distinction is vitally important not only as noted in terms of treatment but in terms of how you will be treated by your fellow citizens and peers and perhaps even make the difference in whether or not you will keep or lose your job: for drugs, you may lose your job. For seizures, you have a good claim to keep your job and the knowledge that this can be treated and you will get better.

This same sort of circumstance happened to me in a milder form this past July as you may have read here on Blogcritics while I was away in Dallas on a business trip. At the time, I remember thinking afterward how awful it all was and how fortunate I was to be alive. It was more frightening because I was also away from home and did not have my husband, my rock, truly, there to comfort and aid me. It never occurred to me that anything could rival that terrifying experience in Texas on that hot and grey day, and yet there I was just a little over a week ago this March having seizures that literally brought me to the ground and much worse. I lost complete consciousness and when I did come to every now and then (which I don't remember), I would kick and fight with doctors out of fear. Imagine waking up and being stripped of your clothes and finding yourself finding yourself in a room full of weird machines that beep and ping and not knowing who you are? It was rather like I would imagine being in a medieval torture chamber was like. I was convinced that the woman placing electrodes on my head was drilling holes into my skull and as to the rest, I can't say, only that I didn't recognize anybody including with and starting with myself.

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#1 — April 4, 2005 @ 19:58PM — Lisa McKay [URL]

Sadi, I have to say that it is appalling that people still hold such feelings about epilepsy in this day and age, when, presumably, we know better. I think that epilepsy, because it exists in so many different forms, is not well understood by most folks. For example, I have a friend with epilepsy who hasn't had a seizure in years. The best teacher I had in high school (a million years ago) came to teaching late in life because she had epilepsy and was terrified of the thought that she might have a seizure in class. Fortunately for her students, she responded very well to whatever medication was in use at the time, and found the courage to enter the classroom. Your decision to share your story will certainly serve to educate all of us. Take care, and thanks for writing this.

#2 — April 4, 2005 @ 20:08PM — sadi [URL]

thanks, Lisa:

I imagine by now, people are weary of my epilepsy stories, yet this last seemed to me especially poignant since it was really walking a fine line between living/notliving and perhaps even being brain dead etc had my husband not responded so quickly or had it been a weekday insteady of a week END. If it had been Monday instead of Sunday, i would have been alone and i dread to think of what would have becme of me. All things told, i am fortunate that things worked out as they did.

Yes, it is appalling that people can still be so ignorant, but that's life. I think some public awareness advertisements would go a long way to helping the cause, the way they have for diabetes or any other ailments out there, and it seems like there are many. Epilepsy is like the poor cousin that nobody wants it seems. I wish the Epilepsy Foundation did some real advertising to raise awareness of the issue; it would help a great deal.

I'm glad you found and read this. I know it's rather long for the web, so i'm grateful to you.

Be well, and spread the good word.

sadi

#3 — April 4, 2005 @ 22:51PM — Jay Barnica

Nice piece, but I was really turned off by your comments about mental illness in the fourth paragraph. A fear of being "lumped" in with mental illness suggests the same sort of ignorance and prejudice that you're railing against...

#4 — April 4, 2005 @ 23:02PM — sadi [URL]

dear J;

i apologize if i was unclear in any way. what i was trying to say, and perhaps this did not come across was that epilepsy is a neurological illness and that IF people are going to/must stereotype, then i wish they would at least get it right. I find it EQUALLY wretched that those with mental illness are typecast - so we are in the same boat in this way. But the distinction is important because the treatment differs in each case, and that is really all i am/was trying to get at. I once had someone who was ignorant say to me, "oh, you're epileptic; that's okay because my ex girlfriend is borderline..." as if the two are AT ALL related. Both are hard, no question, but what bothers me is the ignorance that allows for such statements. I'm not saying and was not saying that one is worse/better than the other, only that they are very different and you can't put them together.

i apologize if this was unclear or if did not make this as clear as it is in my own mind. it is a hard thing to spell out in writing, but i hope i have clarified some more here. The difference, ultimately, is in how you will be type case, and if that is a MUST (and that IS sad)then at least they could get it right... in either case, it is equally wrong.

be well,

s.r.p.

#5 — April 5, 2005 @ 02:21AM — SFC SKI

One of my subordinates was diagnosed with epilepsy, which is a shame because she is so young and it will mean an unexpected carrer change for her. The good thing is that her meds really have kept her conditon under control, and that all her coworkers really went out of their way to find out facts about her condition and come up with ways to properly respond to symptoms and actual seizures. I am glad that I work with a lot of poactive, team oriented people, most of whom are already trained in first aid as well, I wish more people would at least learn that much. I hope that all of this will prove to be equally treatable for you.

#6 — April 5, 2005 @ 10:21AM — sadi [URL]

rob, thanks again;

thankfully, i am now on a medication that has completely stopped the seizures in their tracks. I have had NO seizures since leaving the hospital and i think it will stay that way for a long time. I pray so. I am now looking for fulltime employement (content writer/technology writer -software and medical). If you know anyone who is hiring, let me know ;) and wish me luck... the search begins again.

no doubt, i will land on my feet as i have so many times in the past.

be well, and i wish the very best to you and your teams sounds terrific. if only my last job had been so proactive and caring. instead, they simply let me go without word or cause and Yes, i could sue them, but frankly, it's a waste of time and i'd just as soon as move on. So i do.. onward!

Be well,

Sadi

#7 — April 5, 2005 @ 11:19AM — Shark

Sadi, as always, excellent writing -- and I'm sending good vibes your way. Hang on to your power.

xxoo
M-Shark

#8 — April 5, 2005 @ 11:27AM — sadi [URL]

all vibes from Shark are most welcome! thanks, babe... will hold onto them and hope for the best. fingers crossed and stay in touch, why don't ya...

rock on.

sade

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