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Book Review: Hello To All That: A Memoir of War, Zoloft, and Peace

Written by Jon Sobel
Published February 23, 2005

Hello To All That: A Memoir of War, Zoloft, and Peace recounts in time-shifting chapters the author's depression, pharmaceutical cure, and subsequent formative experience as a freelance war correspondent reporting from the siege of Sarajevo in 1993-4. The parallel stories are interesting and vividly told. But readers expecting something heavy, along the lines of William Styron's depression memoir Darkness Visible, will be in for a surprise. Falk's fast pace, breezy style and sense of humor make this relatively short book a quick and worthwhile read.

John Falk had at least two advantages over many depression sufferers. First, he had a large and supportive family. Second, his mother, having dealt with the illness previously in her family, appreciated his sufferings and tried unceasingly to help. The author's relatively good luck is the reader's as well, for it causes his story to shine an unusually clear light on depression's most insidious aspect: the way it directs the victim to blame himself, to feel his pain and detachment as a personal failing rather than an illness, and to cut himself off from potential sources of help.

I knew I had a big problem... but never once did I think even the word depression. To me, it was the life I was leading, a life in serious need of an overhaul. I wasn't sick. I wasn't different... It was my fault... I was the one who had built this prison for myself.

And when Prozac helps his sister, he reacts not with hope or even sympathy but with defensive anger:

"Sara, listen to me: I'm not taking any fucking drug... I'm not gonna cheat." Then in the most obnoxious way I could, I whispered, "Prozac's for losers."

Falk's good at giving the reader a feel for what cannot be expressed in words:

"It's hard to describe accurately what complete hopelessness feels like because ultimately it's a perfect void, a state of nothing. There's nothing at stake. Reason doesn't apply, logic is useless, and faith is something for fools.

But he's also adept at reporting on the real world. Not coincidentally, immediately after his rescue by the antidepressant Zoloft he made a beeline for one of the worst places one could be at that time: Sarajevo, a ruined city with a terrified population surrounded by snipers. (Not a bad correlate for a depressive's brain, actually.) Falk's depiction of the way Sarajevo's families tried to continue normal life under hellish conditions - constant danger, no electricity, food shortages - is both heartbreaking and inspiring. In spite of their own hardships, several families took him in, and lasting friendships resulted; Falk eventually helped three young Bosnians escape to attend school in America.

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Jon Sobel is Blogcritics' theater editor, reviews NYC theater frequently, and writes a regular round-up of independent music releases. He is also a computer professional, musician, and small-time concert promoter in New York City. (His original band, Whisperado, can be blogcriticized at will, and you can also find him playing bass and singing in the Kings County Blues Band.)
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Book Review: Hello To All That: A Memoir of War, Zoloft, and Peace
Published: February 23, 2005
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#1 — February 27, 2005 @ 01:34AM — Eric Berlin [URL]

Very fine review, Jon, and sounds like a good and important and readable read -- especially for those many Americans (like me) who don't know enough about went down in all of the former Yugoslavia.

I imagine the title is a play on Robert Graves' outstanding, devastating Goodbye to All That (Englishman in the WWI trenches)?

#2 — February 27, 2005 @ 02:08AM — Eric Berlin [URL]

This book review has been selected for Advance.net. You'll be able to find this and other Blog Critics reviews at such places at Cleveland.com's Book Reviews column.

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