Should I Teach?
Published January 25, 2004
The year before I started teaching high school (six years ago), I worked in an elementary school for four months and in schools k-12 as a sub and as a tutor. I learned so much about human beings in that brief span (about six total months before I found my current job). To be sure, there are things that I can still learn about kids if I become a parent, but I think what I learned is different in that I worked with all sorts of personalities and backgrounds. If you can find the time, sub or pre-student teach in an elementary school for a while, and then in a middle school, and then in a high school. If you spend even a few months doing this, you will see it all, from Piaget to Freud. Go to the playground. When my students went to recess and to lunch, I saw emotions at their purest. I even saw Lord of the Flies on more than a few occasions. Trying to reason with kids and to understand their thought processes and motivations—it’s intense. I swear that this understanding extends to my observations and insights about adult behavior. I’m thinking that this type of thing would interest a sociologist and a political scientist.
I mentioned anger above. Sometimes the job gets to you. Over the years, I have just gotten better at dealing with it. Some of my previous jobs helped prepare me for this. As a bartender, I had to deal with a lot of irrational, argumentative drunks—strangely this translates to dealing with high school students and their teenage “logic.”
When I first worked as a delivery driver for a brake parts supplier, I would get very upset with all of the bullshit drivers that I had to deal with. My temper would explode at times, and it all would build up over the course of a day. When I got home, I was an ass to my family and friends. I let the idiocy, carelessness and inconsiderateness of some drivers get to me. After a while of getting repeatedly pushed over the edge, I realized that I had to distance myself from what was happening out there on the roads that was beyond my control. I started taking it easy—no worries. I think it was a story my mom told me about a Berlin cab driver with whom she had once had a conversation. Berlin is a scary place to drive, and my mother had asked this cabbie how on earth he could handle it without exploding and going crazy. He answered that he just decided not to let it bother him. It sounds easy, but it took me a while to incorporate this into my personality. It has proven invaluable on a daily basis as a teacher.
- Should I Teach?
- Published: January 25, 2004
- Type: Opinion
- Section: Culture
- Writer: Dirtgrain
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Very generous and honest appraisal, Dirtgrain. I haven't taught at the high school or elementary levels, but I know people who have or that do. I have taught at the college level, which is much easier going. Let me second your opinion that it's not just the students that color the experience but also the administrative staff and the rest of the teaching staff.
That was pretty good Dirtgrain. One question, what grades do you teach?
I teach composition and literature classes to students in grades nine through twelve.
Cool. I just wanted to know. I'm a high school freshman.
I am reading your book lives on the boundry and I am woundering if I could email you sometime.
I'm not Mike Rose.
You're right - it takes all kinds. Glad to have you aboard, Dirtgrain.
I know that you wrote this forever ago, but I want to say thanks for writing it. It has helped tremendously, and I will make arrangements to sub:)
Thanks Brenda. I just re-read it, and I wouldn't change what I wrote. I'm in my tenth year now, and I still like it (and suffer with it at times).
People tend to see substitute teaching as something negative. I think we can all remember when we had a sub in one of our classes--and a lot of kids planned on taking advantage. While I did have some tough subbing experiences before I became a teacher (and I still sub now and then during my planning period), I also had some great experiences. Even some of the bad ones are memorable.
I once subbed for a special ed. teacher at a middle school. In one class, I saw that she had three students. "Three students," I thought, "that's going to be easy." I was mistaken. The three students, Larry, Willie and Joe (sounds oddly like the Three Stooges), were the most foul-mouthed, delinquent seventh graders I have ever seen. They had to be escorted by a teacher from class to class. I was told to call immediately to call for help if they gave me any trouble. As soon as the escorting teacher left the room, these three kids start putting swear words together in combinations that I had never heard before. One of the kids walked right up to the window, picked up a book and threw it out the window. I didn't call for help. I was too stubborn. So, I did my best, and by the end of the hour, I had managed to get the kids to sit at the table and talk a bit about the assignment that they had. Nothing else was thrown out the window that day. I was shaken and drained after that one class period, but I felt a degree of success. That was my toughest substitute teaching experience.
A more positive experience came at another middle school, where I subbed for a music teacher. She had left me pages and pages of typed, single-spaced notes and instructions. It was ridiculous. I couldn't even finish reading them before class started. Before I knew it, I found myself in front of an orchestra of about twenty five girls, conducting them as they played through several pieces of music that they were working on. I had no experience in conducting an orchestra--only my own experiences as a choir student in junior high school. That didn't stop me, and while I made some mistakes (there's nothing quite like a group of twenty five middle school girls simultaneously getting pissed off at you for messing up on telling the bases when to come in), it was a great time for me. I don't think I'll ever get an opportunity to conduct an orchestra again.
I am currently going to school to become a teacher. I have encountered some difficult times that have made me second guess my decision. I've read books that are supposed to inspire me to become a teacher but they've achieved only the opposite. They encourage teachers to become revolutionists and to fight the system. That is not my intentions and your words have helped to light the flame under my feet again. I appreciate your honesty and your writing style. You should write a book... Thank you!
I have been debating whether or not I should go into teaching i've been thinking about i for a whole year. Today, I googled the question "should i teach?" and you're blog popped up. I received an answer. Although teaching has it's negative points, i believe your description is true and refreshing. Thank you for being honest and giving me a heads up as I continue the path to teaching! I agree with the previous comment. You should write a book if you haven't already:)













This is heartfelt, practical, honest and overall outstanding. Thanks! We need teachers, but we need them for the right reasons.