Everything Is Gonna Be All Right...

Written by Natalie Davis
Published September 10, 2003

My presence here may be diminished over the next few days, though I will try to pop in and get some writing done, if for nothing more than therapeutic purposes. Today, my dad lost his battle with a host of illnesses, including high blood pressure and diabetes, as well as a series of debilitating strokes. Today, my brother and I lost our dear father; our mother, her one true love.

Dad peacefully embarked on the next leg of his journey this morning, just a few hours after I last kissed him and touched his warm forehead. It saddens me that I was not with him when he took his leave, but perhaps he wanted to spare me that. And that is kind of cool. It was his way, you see: Dad was a proud, stubborn, fiercely independent person, and that is how he made his exit. I am so proud to be his daughter and to see his face when peering into the mirror. I will treasure many wonderful memories of him and will always hold him in my heart. But I doubt i'll ever get over this unbearable ache in my soul...

The good news: Dad is free. He did not have an easy life, by any imagination's stretch. For years he fought against injustice, against bigotry. Often he found doors slammed in his face and often he felt righteous anger and deep despair. But he never bowed. Never caved in. Never gave up. And remained proud. And I am so proud of him, so proud to be his daughter. Thank God I had the opportunity to spend most of this summer at his side and was able to make him laugh and to tell him exactly how much he means to me and to my children, whom he adored.

My father and I shared many things, including a passion for reggae music and Bob Marley, whom he saw perform back in the 1970s. For Dad, Marley's "Duppy Conqueror" seems a fitting tribute and sendoff:

Yes, me friend,
We deh a street again.
Yes, me friend, me good friend,
Dem say we free again.

The bars could not hold me;
Force could not control me now.
They try to keep me down, yeah!
But Jah put I around.

Yes, I've been accused
And wrongly abused, now.
But through the powers of the Most-I,
They've got to turn me loose.

Don't try to cold me up, oh yes, praise Jah.
I've got to reach Mount Zion -
The highest region.
So if you a bull-bucka,
Let me tell you this -
I'm a duppy conqueror - conqueror!

Yes, me friend, me good friend,
We deh a street again.
Yes, me friend, me good friend,
Dem say we free again.

Thanks and love to all who sent well wishes and prayers during his illness.

Rest in peace, sweet Daddy. I love you and thank you.

Mervin Ignatius Davis, Sr.

July 20, 1943 - Sept. 9, 2003

 

Natalie Davis is an award-winning journalist, progressive- and GLBT-issues activist, musician and broadcaster. Davis' All Facts and Opinions - The Armchair Activist has existed since 1996. She is general manager and program/music director of Grateful Dread Radio, an 11-year-old multigenre Internet station dedicated to presenting diverse sounds for open minds.
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#1 — September 10, 2003 @ 09:18AM — Phillip Winn [URL]

I'm very sorry for your loss, Natalie. It is clear that you love him and I believe that you have represted him well as a proud daughter. Bravo.

#2 — September 10, 2003 @ 09:24AM — Dawn

Natalie,

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

What a lucky man he was to have such blessings as a loving wife and children.

#3 — September 10, 2003 @ 09:29AM — Eric Olsen

The very best to you and yours Natalie - I am very sad today.

#4 — September 10, 2003 @ 10:09AM — andy

I am truely sorry to hear about your loss Natalie.

#5 — September 10, 2003 @ 10:32AM — julia [URL]

flights of angels sing him to his rest

#6 — September 10, 2003 @ 11:59AM — terrilynn [URL]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I recently lost my father, too, and wish you peace as you go through this time.

#7 — September 10, 2003 @ 13:21PM — Natalie Davis [URL]

{{{terrilynn}}}

Peace to you, too.

#8 — September 10, 2003 @ 14:46PM — Dew [URL]

I have been to this post too many times now and I keep wondering what philosophic, poetic or cliche-ish verbiage I can place here that would soothe or otherwise calm any grief you are feeling. Then I realize only God and time can do that.

Nat(alie) I am sorry for your loss. I wish you and your family the best during these emotional times.

#9 — October 6, 2003 @ 18:15PM — Temple A. Stark [URL]

Thanks for having the strength to post this. some might call it inconsequential to post this at such a site as this?

But you can be sure, shared grief is a burden more easily carried. I lost my estranged dad when I was a teenager. I never real knew him and now I never will.

You had a relationship. Question of the day - does that make it easier or harder to say goodbye?

In your case I'd have to say easier.

#10 — October 6, 2003 @ 18:33PM — Natalie Davis [URL]

You're probably right about that, though easier is not easy by any means. I am sorry to hear about your dad.

I don't think posting the article here, which I'll admit was primarily a selfish act, was inconsequential at all.

For one, it's a fine piece of writing, if I say so myself. Two, I wanted and needed to tell the world a little bit about the loss of a great man it never knew, and BC provided a platform.

And it was therapeutic: I wrote this mere hours after Dad's death -- can't imagine what I would have done with myself during those awful, lonely hours if I hadn't had something productive to do. I finally found myself in that spot days later, once the planning was done, the funeral was complete, my father was laid to rest, a numbing writer's block had set in, and I was left all alone with my grief. So writing this tribute helped me avoid that for a bit.

Inconsequential? Not at all.

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